[[Rock it :D*]]
MISSION : Survive 3 full weeks while viv is in Ipoh.
Not doing very well, anyways.
Woke at 530 am and prepared to go for work.
had to meet the others at CP, 630.
i was the earliest as usual.
managed to keep my mood good.
yesterday was a disaster.
more chatty and smiley today.
bus-ed 156 to coronation plaza,
and walked to Nan Yang primary.
a china girl was our supervisor.
SHE SUPER IRRITATING CAN?
keep snatch the receipt from cashier to serve the customer.
i was OBVIOUSLY waiting for a receipt!!!
pekchek. oh whatever.
anyways things got busy,
but there were more than enough gatherers
so uncle asked me to go out of the room to direct the parents.
did pretty well.
so happy didn't get scolded by "FLOWER" -aka boss- today.
gatherer is so much easier than Tabulator,
though everyone said that it's the most easy and relax post.
Saw Chen Li Ping, a mediacorp artist, with her husbund and their child.
no one was exactly going crazy about that,
so everything was as per normal lorh.
work ends at 12.30,
& we all headed for junction 8 as i wanted to eat mac.
actually i had not much money on me,
so i used my Ez-link,
which only mac allows that.
nobody knows what to do after lunch,
so we all HOME-ED.
mum and bro was using the computers,
i didn't want to use it anyways.
continued my book -twilight- till the end.
bro cut a weird shaped out of my mum's bday cake that was leftover from yesterday.
nibbled a piece of chocolate while i read.
perfect enjoyment.
after a short while,
the sun was setting already
& sunlight wasn't enough to support reading in the living room.
complained, and shifted chair to the direction of sunlight.
muhahahhaa, trapped my bro on the other sofa.
finally reading the book,
satisfied.
went to sleep.
effing tired after working for 4.5 hours
my feet hurts.
that supervisor of ours is so alike to Xiaoji laoshi
that i felt friendly
but she was so unfriendly,
so i gave up trying to be nice and frowned at her.
cant blame me. she was unkind. ];
i didn't want to think at all.
my left brain had been hurting ever since - idk when?
i didn't even calculate the impossibilities,
because i dun wan to feel this way.
I'm tired and sick and irritated of it.
it's painful and unrealistic
& after all these years,
I'm giving it all up.
i do not expect anything,
but pain & emotional stress.
i didn't want to talk about it at all,
about how i was feeling and all those stuffs.
i told jie i didn't want to tell.
and she left it that way, fortunately.
been distracted and tiring myself out with work
& reading. helps a lot.
put occasionally, images flashed in my mind.
well, i think my brain just wants me to be pain stricken.
whatever,
i just kept my mind as pre-occupied/empty as possible.
typing everything had somewhat lessen the pain -.-
weird huh?
i started thinking aloud something so profound that i don't even understand.
but that exactly what was bothering me,
& since i cannot understand,
i couldn't solve it.
that's that. gave up.
i shall end post here. dun want to type & think.
cause i know my doubts can't be answered
since viv is not in sg.
& i have no idea how to contact her
since she said that messaging is exp
& she dun wan to messaging.
& that my phone have no battery currently
cause i do not bother charging so i switch it off.
ps@ Sleeping helps the days to pass faster.
ps@@ a hectic and exhausting day only made me unable to cry & give up on trying or thinking of solutions. 任命了。
