[[Rock it :D*]]
HURRRRAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
GOT MY PAY TODAY. [;
WEEEE.
NABEI. DO FOR ONE MTH, LESS THEN A HUNDRED BUCKS.
I DO ACCOUNTING FOR JH'S MUM,
IN ONE WEEK CAN GET THAT AMOUNT LE LA.
okay damn tired.
woke at 7am again.
couldnt get some decent sleep.
slacked on bed till 8.45.
cannot ta han le.
went to bathe.
not even 9am lorh.
zzz-ed.
met weichang and the others at cp 10am.
slacked there, talk and count money. lol
reached united uniform main branch at 11.30am
SUUCK man.
dhen so freaking guility cause THE WHOLE GANG OF US,
MORE DHEN 15 people,
ARE LEAVING UNITED UNIFORM.
WAHAHHAHAHAHHAA [[;
OMG SO EVIL, THEY ARE GONNA DAO BI LIAOOO
MUHAHHAHAHHAA
i kept asking them dun quit la, at least do a few days.
WEICHANG kept insiting MAKE THEM DAO BI.
HAHAHA , in the end i just saed i dun wan to do le.
I REALLY NOT GONNA DO LE MA.
ben lai jiu want to quit liao.
after collecting pay,
eat lunch with the others..
i headed to bishan
while everyone PS me,
sit the other direction de train.
WAYYY TOO TIRED right now.
worked 5 hours there.
from 2pm to 7pm.
JIAHAO CAME HOME 1ST THING SLEEP.
HAHAHA PIGGY.
too bad [;
then when i'm going off le,
then he wake up LOL.
okay whatever.
i'm so gonna get my BEAUTYYYYY sleep tonight.
and i'm dedicating all my time tomorrow planning events.
NO.1 VIVIAN BDAY
- all my thoughts are dashed lorh.
i dun even know what to do now.
HOW HOW HOWWWW....
okay if i'm gonna follow my imagination,
IT WOULD BE WEIRD.
... think of ways to lessen the impact.
NO.2 SENTOSA TRIP.
- exact day , timming, activities and everything. [;
- WAHHHHHH, JIAMINNNN THANKS A LOTTT SIA.
for helping out with planning.
seriously i need to arrange my time a bit.
WAHLAN LEH. I WAN TO CALL YOU LA VIVIANNNNN.
ZZZ-ED i dunno am i allowed to call or not lorh.
blehs. CALL AUDREY FOR CONSULTATION.
SHYT SHYT SHYT SHYT.
OMGGGGGGGG.... HOW AM I GONNA TAKE TIME OUT WHEN VIV CAME BACK.
OKAY.
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.
WENT TO JOB INTERVIEW WITH WEICHANG, SILIANG, FELICA, SHAWN.
IT'S AT A VERY VERY VERY OLUU PLACE WORHS.
EVERYONE WAS FREAKED OUT.
STINK LIKE HELL.
SHH DUN TELL ANYONE I SAY THAT.
ANYWAYS, IT'S AT THE TOP FLOOR.
WHICH IS FREAKY.
CAUSE TOP FLOOR ARE RESIDENTIAL PLACE.
HAHA, IN THE END, IT TURNED OUT TO BE A COOL PLACE.
I THOUGHT IT'S GAMMING DE.
BUT IT'S STARHUB CABLE VISION AND MAXONLINE.
WE GOT THE JOB IMMEADIATLY.
AT 1ST, I WANTED TO HEAD TOWARDS JH'S HOUSE FOR WORK LE.
THEN THERE'S A TRAINING SESSION I NEED TO ATTEND.
SO ENDED UP ATTENDING.
OMGGG.... GUESS WHAT.
GOT A VERY PRETTY GIRL, MEILING.
THEN WEICHANG KEEP RATING THE GIRLS WHO ATTENDED THE TRAINING COURSE.
EVERYONE ELSE SAYS HE'S LAO TIKO`` HAHHA.
WEICHANG KEPT BEING CALLED UP FOR DEMOSTRATION.
HAHAHA. ORBIQUACK.
AND GUESS WHAT AGAIN...
I ENDED DOING DEMO WITH MEILING.
I WAS LIKE DAMN NERVOUS CAN.
STUTTERING. FUCK. SO EMBRASSING. ;X
WHATEVER...
AND WHEN I THOUGHT IT'S FINALLY OVER,
WE HAVE TO SWITCH ROLES.
HAHAHA I KEEP ANSWER BACK,
BUT IN THE END...
I DECIDED TO PULL THE CONVER CLOSER TO WHAT I'M SUPPOSE TO SAY.
SHYT......
I'M SO DAMNED.
VIVIAN IS COMMING BACK ON THE THIRD...
AND AND AND MY WEEK IS SO FREAKING PACKED.
FUUCK LA.
TMR GETTING SALARY FROM UNITED UNIFORM.
DUNNO CAN EVEN GET OR NOT...
AND I'M SUPPOSE TO GO OVER TO JH HOUSE TO DO FINISH SEPT DE FILE.
OMG... I WANT TO GO OUT WITH VIVIAN LA.
OKAY, LET ME SEE..
MORNING FROM 10AM TO 4PM,
I'M DOING ACCOUNTING,
EVENING/NIGHT 6PM TO 9PM,
I'M DOING SALES FOR STARHUB.
ZHEN ME BANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN....... ;X
DUNCARE HAHA, DUN DO 2 DAYS FOR WEEK 1/ DEC.
I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT TO GO OUTTTTTTTTTT....
[[;
OMGGG, i miss you that much.
okay vivian called in the afternoon.
i was suprised y'know.
was like ...
EH VIV VOICE.
budden ehh not possible ma...
it turned out to be her afterall [;
BRA WAS SCREAMING, GWYNETH MISSSSSSS YOU A LOT A LOT.
o.o WTH ma...
he was so interuptive till i went into my room. [;
so happy.
indescribable.
couldnt talk long as it's expensive.
haha. i'm dead meat for next month's bill.
WHO CARESSSSSS. I MISS HER A LOT.
so bored.
whole day nth to do
maybe i'll start planning on what the guild event should be.
thrus and fri, gonna work for JH's mum.
i wonder when i can get my salary from united uniform.
zzz-ed...
VIVIANNN IT'S A SURPRISE, SO IM NOT GONNA TELL U WHAT IT IS.
I HOPE I'M ABLE TO FINISH IT. [;
HOHOHO, I FINALLY CAUGHT YOUR PICTURE, baka wayneee [[; Labels: hypernessBOWLINGGGGG ; INTERNET CAFEEEEE!!
[[; hey people. i went out with huimin and co. today!!
it was really enjoyable.
it had been a long time since we went out together,
and not as a guild outing.
okay... so i was early.
in fact, 10 mins early.
didnt expect to be that early. ;x
went to eat mac for lunch.
Jiong xun imitating traffic police,but instead of stoping cars stop me from taking photo ;[[
erm the day was very well plain.
but entertaining as well.
plain and simple, carefree.
i like it that way, anyways. [;
so... THAT WAYNE KEPT POKING ME.
from 1 finger, to 20 fingers!!! ;O
evil.
end up poking each other the whole day ;X
i forgotten about something.
but nvm.
went to lan for 1hr
then met up with kester and his cousin,
at bowling center.
min came along later.
i paid for her game.
haha, i dun mind at all. [;
as long as everyone's having fun.
kester and min can go out tgt finally,
since the day they can take leave is different.
i'm happy.
okay, my hand is breaking by the time i reached home.
hey, 3 rounds of bowling ...
with 8pound/kg de bowling ball ...
IS SOMETHING MORE THAN MY POOR HAND CAN HANDLE.
okay, so i'm left with 5 dollar for the rest of the week.
supposingly can survive.
I WILL SURVIVEEEEEEE!!!
watch drama series with mum.
so stupid.
wasnt happy liao.
the way life is,
and how things go...
so on and so fro.
tiring.
ps./ I FEEL SO EMPTY...
MUHAHAHHAA, i want a lot of things.
VIVIAN I GOT MY NEW PHONE LE!
W595!! 
PRETTY BAH! that was the most outstanding phone anyways. [[;
KEYBOARD, DUN LEAVE MEEEEE!!
okay, the following post may have punctuation errors.
why?
CAUSE MY KEYBOARD CANNOT PRESS '' SHIFT ''
so i have to copy
exclamation & question marks from HUIRU. [[;
thanks a lot.. anyways.
LOL.
okay, whatever.
Recently,
i just wanna live life the way i like.
i began to work towards what i want in life.
i planned to clear up my room,
and design a concept and refurnish it to my liking.
I'm inspired to be a interior designer,
and i dun wan to live my life in a commonly designed house.
i began to love myself more.
i wan to enjoy life,
and not just live through it.
seeing it slip away day by day.
guess I'm finally growing up.
OKAY DITCH THE SERIOUSNESS!
haha [;
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i want self-designed room.
i want to change the shelves.
i want to buy new keyboard.
i want to buy new bed and bed frame.
i want to some accessories to change the ambiance of my room.
I WANT TO ENJOY MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST
& NOT JUST RUSH THROUGH IT. [[;
i want a lot of things.
but i just dun have the money.
but nvm, i'll work hard to afford such stuffs. [;
OH I HAVE NOT BOUGHT THE SCREEN PROTECTOR.
haha, whatever [;
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things had changed a lot of me.
how about u? [;
staying at home the whole day,
felt more tiring then going out the whole day working.
seriously.
i don't think i can spent another day at home, rotting.
HAHA``
I'm happy that i get to go out on MONDAY.
YAY, I MISS EVERYONE!!
going bowling with Wayne on Monday,
maybe going to VIP outing on Tuesday.
I'm started to worry about what should i do the rest of the week.
surely i will not rot at home.
at least i wouldn't dine at home if there isn't proper to eat.
NO, DEFINITELY NO INSTANT NOODLES ANYMORE, HAHA.
proper meals for me.
2 meals a day would do [;
Maybe i'll spent the rest of the days exercising.
i really should jog to compasspoint,
every morning & buy my breakfast back home.
that should do the trick.
after that,
i'll do my school work,
which i've yet finished.
i really wanna go well next year.
but everytime i said that,
i don't work towards it.
GUESS WHY?
cause all along,
my motivation is someone other than myself.
i learnt that this time,
i need to do it for myself.
with so much things i wanna get.
i guess it wasn't that hard to start work.
ps. BE PROUD OF ME, VIVIAN [[;
i've walked out of it.
TWILIGHT IS THE SEX; YO!Mmm, I'm sick of pondering.so i spent my entire day,doing stuffs i've yet accomplish.was suppose to go to JH's housetoday to fix he's audi & perf hack? -.-ended up watching 10brothers.YAY, I FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING!it was sad & touching.HAD TO BREAK OFF DUE TO DINNER. ;[hehe VIV's on9.o-o wondering where she's accessing internet from.i gave away just a lil too much -.-whatever. [;she's currently blogging.so replies would be slower than usual.BRO'S BEEN DOTA-ING the whole day !!!wth.played Audi just now. [;YAY PEOPLE ARE GETTING ALIVEEEEE.& i thought they were dead. & YES! IT HAD BEEN DECIDED THAT ....I'll be going out with KES & co. next tuesday!weeeeeee BOWLING!!it had been a very long time since we had a outing on our own.so excited!OHH OHH & im holding a GUILD OUTING SOON!hehehe! GREAT! can go out soon! :DDDDSENTOSA!!! OR ANYWHERE! i just didnt want to stay at home. [[;
"Forbidden to Remember, Terrified to Forget; it was a hard line to walk."
I was surprised when I found myself inside my room, not clearly remembering the journey home or even opening the front door. But it didn't matter. Losing track of time was the most i asked from life.
Life just isn't the same as before.
i knew things had to change.
but i still like it the way before.
i just want the numbness in me to last.
work wasn't just about pay.
it's a crucial distraction for me.
at least for now it is.
& what's my pay for now?
no, i don't know anymore.
I've lost the purpose for it.
but never mind about that,
money had lots of ways to use.
Attended entrepreneurship course with SJH today.
Another distraction.
Definatly.
But dinner was expensive, however undoubtly sasitifying.
SJH so kind today. Treat me so much things.
But whatever.
i saw her in that book.
i saw them in that book.
i saw both of them.
why is my memories all mixed up.
when did 2 become one?
no, not good.
i'm losing my sanity.
Definatly....
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For the 1st time in years,
i combed my hair.
i bathe w/o washing it, ONCE ONLY!!
HEY, can't blame me.
i don't want to wait for it to dry.
THOUGHTS ARE AFFECTING ME!
IMAGES JUST FLASHED THROUGH LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!
ANYTIME! ANYWHERE!
ps/ i cannot wait for a new phone.
ps// i cannot wait till i verified my questions. I AM SO ANGRY WITH U. or at least the one in my heart.
There's no work for Tues and Wed.
Yippee? no, i guess not.
My head is hurting freaky lot.
i ran & ran & ran even more.
but still it came back.
i was sure that it had nth to do with me being unfit.
i broke down yesterday.
i cried like nobody's business.
my parents think that it was about the phone not working.
half true though.
my contract has ended
& i could finally change my HP.
i started crying because i was panicking
& bra just wouldnt lent me he's HP,
HELLO? WHICH WAS ORIGINALLY MINE?!
whatever.
mum HP dun work.
i cant check the messages stored in my sim card from dad's HP.
Aug said viv sms-ed.
was ultra sad cause i couldn't see the sms.
& i have bloody lots of sms.
i could see them.
but mum's hp dun allow me to send msg back. ;[
zzz-ed pek chek.
heng weichang on9
so i can tell him that
Jasmine had sms-ed me asking about the sch she had to go tmr.
soon, i gave up with the phone and went to cry in the room.
stupid.
i wonder how tears just came out without a reason.
i know im feeling sad.
& the reason that kept me running away from.
it wasnt of much use anyways.
i was fumming with angry and sadness.
i much look like a zombie when i came out to bathe,
remembering i hadn't bathe since i was back from work.
my face was super white ;[
there's hatred in my eyes.
who cares anyways.
breathing was hard.
hard to remember how to.
there's too much to endure.
too much pain.
my left temple kept trobbing.
annoying!
i shifted my sadness to what happened last year.
at least that's make more sense to cry,
than what i was crying about.
i stared at the "fish tank" under my desk.
i think that's what brings me back to sanity.
i calmed down & fell asleep.
& sleep wasnt easy.
what happen in my dreams?
hehe for me to know and for u to find out :P
ciaos for now. ;[[
WITHIN TEMPTATIONS - MEMORIES
In this world you tried
not leaving me alone behind.
There's no other way.
I prayed to the gods let him stay.
The memories ease the pain inside,
now I know why.
Chorus:
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.
Made me promise I'd try
to find my way back in this life.
I hope there is a way
to give me a sign you're ok.
Reminds me again it's worth it all
so I can go on.
Repeat chorus:
Together in all these memories
I see your smile.
All the memories I hold dear.
Darling, you know I will love you
until the end of time.
Repeat chorus:
All of my memories....
The QUEER Quiz
#o1 . The person who taqqed you is ?
SHAOMIN! [[; aka -devil !
#o2 . You relationship with Him/Her .
Friend ; Classmate for one year & 2 the next.; ALLY;
#o3 . Your 5 impresion of Him/Her .
Random, Cool, Hystrical, Emotional & Funny
#o4 . The most memorable thinq that He/She has done for you .
O_O! OMG, EXTREME MAKE OVER ;x
#o5 . The most memorable thinq that He/She has said to you .
"jiamin in hot pink jumpsuit jumping outside doorside."
#o6 . If He/She becomes your LOVER , Thinqs He/She has to improve is ?
LOL?? wow, im honoured. nothing! she's nice. [[;
#o7 . If He/She becomes your enemy , you will ?
SCREAMMMMM! omg, i dun wan be your enemy ;x
#o8 . What is the thinq that you want to tell Him/Her now?
YAY! LETS GO OUT ON ANOTHER OUTING! sentosa? :]]
#o9 . Your overall impresion of Him/Her .
Cool, cute & AMZAINGLY original.
#o1o . How do think the person around you will feel about you ?
Emo kia, look fierce * run awayyyyyy*
#o11 . The character you love of yourself is ?
die hard romantic. ~_~
#o12 . On the contrary , the character you hate of yourself is ?
getting jealous/angry too easily; think too much
#o13 . The most ideal person you want to be is ?
hehe my imaginary friend!
#o14 . For people(s) who cares & likes you , say somthinq to them .
I LOVE YOU TOO :D
#o15 . Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know thier feel about you .
1. VIVIAN ;x ( though i know you wun see this )
2. BRA!
3. DONUTNUT <3
4. WAYNE~
5. JIAMIN
6. PEANUTNUT <3
7. SHUCHUIN aka SUSHI
8. WITCHY ;]]
9. HUIRU
10. WANWEN
#o16 . Who No.6 havinq relationship with ?
A PARROT! HEHE EUGENE LA ;]]
#o17 . Is No.9 female or male ?
Female, duh :D
#o18 . If No.7 & No.1o be toqether , will it be a qood thinq ?
Erm no? >_< they dunno each other. Les ah?
#o19 . What is No.2 studyinq about ?
definitely dota!
#o2o . When was the last time you chat with No.3 ?
T____T since last day of bridging.
#o21 . What kind of music band does No.8 like ?
mostly chinese pop. Y2J bah. [;
#o22 . Does No.1 has sibilinqs ?
YES! hehe her lil sis.
#o23 . Will you WOO No.3 ?
DONUTNUT BE MY DARLING :D & let me munch u bah! MUHAHAHA~!
#o24 . How about No.7 ?
LOL oso can! sushi oso nice to munch!
#o25 . Is No.4 sinqle ?
ER... ya i guess so.
#o26 . What is the surname of No.5 ?
POW.
#o27 . What is the hobby of No.1o ?
KISSING KATTUNS PHOTOS! kidding haha.
#o28 . Does No.5 and No.9 qet alonq well ?
actually, i have no idea...
#o29 . Where is No.2 studyinq at ?
EFPS ;]
#o3o . Talk somethinq about No.1 .
VIVIAN! IMY, ILY! i like Your singing a lot, sing for me again worhs.
#o31 . Have you tried developinq feelinq for No.8 ?
erm... idk -.-
#o32 . Where does No .9 stay ?
BOONLAY, very long bus ride -.-''
#o33 . What coulour does No.4 like ?
PURPLE CURRY COLOUR! just kidding. no idea la.
#o34 . Are you No.1 & No.5 bestfriend ?
VIV MY BFFFLLT. wth is that. idk bout JM >< but still good friends :D
#o35 . Does No.1 has pets ?
guess not?
#o36 . Is No.7 The sexiest person in the world ?
IN HER OWN SUSHI-licious WAY!
#o37 . What is No.1o doinq now ?
most probably ogling at Kattun again
okay i copied the entire quiz from shaomin blog. sorries, lazy type. i guess i go sleep le. tmr need wake at 530 to go work :D
MISSION : Survive 3 full weeks while viv is in Ipoh.
Not doing very well, anyways.
Woke at 530 am and prepared to go for work.
had to meet the others at CP, 630.
i was the earliest as usual.
managed to keep my mood good.
yesterday was a disaster.
more chatty and smiley today.
bus-ed 156 to coronation plaza,
and walked to Nan Yang primary.
a china girl was our supervisor.
SHE SUPER IRRITATING CAN?
keep snatch the receipt from cashier to serve the customer.
i was OBVIOUSLY waiting for a receipt!!!
pekchek. oh whatever.
anyways things got busy,
but there were more than enough gatherers
so uncle asked me to go out of the room to direct the parents.
did pretty well.
so happy didn't get scolded by "FLOWER" -aka boss- today.
gatherer is so much easier than Tabulator,
though everyone said that it's the most easy and relax post.
Saw Chen Li Ping, a mediacorp artist, with her husbund and their child.
no one was exactly going crazy about that,
so everything was as per normal lorh.
work ends at 12.30,
& we all headed for junction 8 as i wanted to eat mac.
actually i had not much money on me,
so i used my Ez-link,
which only mac allows that.
nobody knows what to do after lunch,
so we all HOME-ED.
mum and bro was using the computers,
i didn't want to use it anyways.
continued my book -twilight- till the end.
bro cut a weird shaped out of my mum's bday cake that was leftover from yesterday.
nibbled a piece of chocolate while i read.
perfect enjoyment.
after a short while,
the sun was setting already
& sunlight wasn't enough to support reading in the living room.
complained, and shifted chair to the direction of sunlight.
muhahahhaa, trapped my bro on the other sofa.
finally reading the book,
satisfied.
went to sleep.
effing tired after working for 4.5 hours
my feet hurts.
that supervisor of ours is so alike to Xiaoji laoshi
that i felt friendly
but she was so unfriendly,
so i gave up trying to be nice and frowned at her.
cant blame me. she was unkind. ];
i didn't want to think at all.
my left brain had been hurting ever since - idk when?
i didn't even calculate the impossibilities,
because i dun wan to feel this way.
I'm tired and sick and irritated of it.
it's painful and unrealistic
& after all these years,
I'm giving it all up.
i do not expect anything,
but pain & emotional stress.
i didn't want to talk about it at all,
about how i was feeling and all those stuffs.
i told jie i didn't want to tell.
and she left it that way, fortunately.
been distracted and tiring myself out with work
& reading. helps a lot.
put occasionally, images flashed in my mind.
well, i think my brain just wants me to be pain stricken.
whatever,
i just kept my mind as pre-occupied/empty as possible.
typing everything had somewhat lessen the pain -.-
weird huh?
i started thinking aloud something so profound that i don't even understand.
but that exactly what was bothering me,
& since i cannot understand,
i couldn't solve it.
that's that. gave up.
i shall end post here. dun want to type & think.
cause i know my doubts can't be answered
since viv is not in sg.
& i have no idea how to contact her
since she said that messaging is exp
& she dun wan to messaging.
& that my phone have no battery currently
cause i do not bother charging so i switch it off.
ps@ Sleeping helps the days to pass faster.
ps@@ a hectic and exhausting day only made me unable to cry & give up on trying or thinking of solutions. 任命了。
Labels: Daily Tots, EmoEMO.
is the only word
i could find to describe
now.
well viv left for ipoh today.
i was ultra tired when she woke me up today.
hais.
but we chatted anyways.
when i finally got up and bathe,
& prepare for work,
she was leaving sg le.
so we stopped smsing.
i didn't talk much the entire day.
no, i only talked when people asked me questions.
i was too busy concentrating on what to think and what not to think.
the same thoughts had already been preoccupying my entire mind,
and leaving me sleepless nights for the past week.
DESPERATELY GASPING FOR AIR,
CHOKING MYSELF IN MY THOUGHTS.
i read twilight to distract myself.
but it didn't work for a long term.
got scolded at work in the afternoon.
a customer kept changing her mind,
so i kept canceling,
making the whole receipt messy.
THEN BOSS STARED AT ME.
die liao lorh.
got a few times is my partner calculate wrong de,
i think i got blamed for that too.
sweet. -.-
so they are going to change my duty.
how great....
whatever.
packed up and headed home after work.
it was a long ride from siglap to punggol.
took bus 87 & 62.
i didn't take out my book.
it was freezing cold in the bus,
but i just let it come.
it was painfully cold.
but i wasn't in the mood to be bothered with that.
i just kept looking out,
trying to block out thoughts.
i was effing tired when i finally reached home.
went to bed immediately.
i think i was about to get sick.
or more of emotionally sick.
slept till 930 Then i wake.
mum was already back from m'sia with dad.
it was her birthday today.
i came out to charge my phone.
& put up a smile so the celebration could go on.
whatever ... i feel so weak now.
Si liang told me Chaos had made FTB blacklisted by making a FTB de char & went challenging AWE's leader. great... -.- but Jiamin is handling the case currently. so yeah, happy that i didn't need to do much. Thanks a lot JM.
ps// my mood is sibei jialat. & it just got worse ...
i know i had to post about BBQ & UBIN. but .... this is way more important!
sorry but i dun like going out in 3s! unless those are both are people i know long enough to be comfortable with at all times.
WENT TO WORK TODAY!
at nanyang pri sch.
FREAKING far away, yet near to viv :DDDD
omg so happy la.
meeting her after work. ;]]]]
we reached nanyang pri b4 1pm
auntie habven reached lo!
wahlao i wan end quickly so i can go off.
in the end 2++ dhen auntie came.
we shifted tables, chairs & carried heavy bags of clothings.
tore the skin above my fingernails.
painful, duh?!
viv called me when i was checking goods halfway.
no sound came from phone sia.
dhen boss was like "chop chop quickly check" *taps on table*
THEN I WAS LIKE OMGGGGGG.
shut off handphone.
auntie Yuqian, our in-charge,
was finding the person to lock the doors so tat goods will not be stolen.
freaking slow sia!
VIV keep calling.
& i was being very .... excited??? i forgot whats the word liao.
i wannnnnna get out of this place asps la!!
wadevaaaa.
when we finally got out,
idk how to take bus to IMM there.
so cab-ed there.
the cab driver rocks okay!!!
he very quiet. :)))
and he was suppose to change shift,
but agreed to drive me to IMM since there werent any taxi about
& he was going jurong.
met up with viv and aug ;
changed clothing and subway-ed!
vivian didnt wanna order on her own cause she dunno how.
ended up sharing 1-foot sandwitch with AUG.
seriously i wanna stare at her, okay fineeeee leave it.
i didnt talk while i eat,
cause they both were chatting happily away.
i dun wan to see.
so i stare at the meatball & vivian's dripping bread.
see the straw... i bo wei gong la.
very awkward, wadevaa leave it.
she cried just now,
i feel so ...
i dun like to be feeling that way
i dunno how to cheer people up ;X
so i'm scared that people cry
from the wholeeeee damn trip,
aug keep insisted things like .....
at the traffic light,
i got super irritated that i wanna walk far far far far far farrrrr away.
frowneddd.
sorry but suppressing anger is not a nice feeling.
but viv didnt see,
cause i didnt want her to see.
& she poke meeeeee which i wanna ignore her.
so i shook her hand off me.
and my STUPID VOICEEEE gave me off that i'm ULTRA irritated.
damnZ! okay wadeva.
when they bid farewell,
i simply walked to the escalator and wait for vivian.
dun wan stay there, it doesnt help much in my mood.
saw their feeeeets.
well vivian was wearing pokadots shoes,
so the other pair of feet must be aug's.
i just look at their feet & predict.
well vivian was in her usual way of saying goodbye.
so i was there waiting for her.
finally when she came,
she saed something. i forgot it was a question or a statement. ;[
so i saed i was emo.
DOWNRIGHT IRRITATED.
well i saed it nicely ofcuz w/o the caps part.
today, i just wanna be alone with you,
i went to there to meet you.
not to see how's you and aug -.-
just to admit... i wanted to just walk across the road like nobody's business, cause my mood allows me to.
we headed off to boonlay.
chatted in the mrt,
my mood gotten way lighter. [[:
and i smiled.
it was nice just like that.
i didnt wanna go home that early,
mainly,
cause viv will be going msia on tmr & i wan to be with her longer
& cause it's not ending on a good note yet.
so i will not be happy with myself later on...
decided to shop for the baobei,
that her mum wants her to buy.
went to fairprice.
& couldnt find it.
omg, i couldnt remember the details....
okay i remembered going in to toilet... *push away, unncessary *
OHHH THAT VIVIAN GO SLAP MY TUMMY?!?!?!?!
i gave the shocked look sia.
she took me by suprise!
& she kept repeat the sound & laughing over it!
ROFL. okay evil... T____T
dun let me poke her lorh,
u good !
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i just wanna tell you whats on my mind
since u carnt read it.
i decided to stop writing about it
though most of the bad side is alrdy out
& one more thing.
i like your singing
it's soothing.
something about it that gives me the same feeling
when i look at clouds.
peacefull?
clear?
honest?
simple?
i carnt find the exact word for it.
but i realised that this is it, the thing i've been looking for, in you.
for ariel, i dunno yet. i habven met her yet. shud be simplicity too.
for zhen, it's her simplicity bah :D
for jer, it's something in her looks and actions.
well, i dunno whats is that something called. but it's something nice jiu shi le :D
i wasnt very close to everyone.
it takes sometime to notice these things.
very well, i guess ill sleep now.
overall, i enjoyed today because it ended a nice way & most of the time the ending is the way i decide whether its a nice day or not.
yesterday went to BBQ, which was a huge success ^^
WEEWOOTS, hurray for -VIP-devil, shaomin!!! :D
yesterday was scary x.x
anyways, thoughts are still oveerwhleming in my empty head.
though being so tired,
i couldnt actually sleep yesterday.
& I FORGOTTEN TODAY HAVE CCA !!! __
haix. post about that later,
i gotta go out at 11.15
my whole body ache.
damn, we are doing CIP today at chek jawa.
still needed to post about BBQ.
i'm dieing le.
lets see, well im suppose to write a post today.
i thought about what to write today.
and in the morning.
BUT I FORGOTTEN!!!
ahh T_T.
viv say i have STM ;[
wadeva XP
hehe, today morning very cooling
i slept till 1pm.
^^ was suppose to go CCA,
but last min cancel.
so happy, cause wasnt able to wake up.
ytd 2am dhen sleep. ;[
&&&& I'M READING TWILIGHT ON THE SOFA.
suprising eh? :D
ohh dun make me remember its her fav book -.-
now still watching shi xiong di on mysoju,
a link given by viv :DDDDDDD
nice leh, so funny [;
ANYWAYS.... before i forget again,
this is to viv, my QAD :D"earth to you, that person had alrdy left the building"was the phrase that i remember ever so vividly :]
You're special to me in your own ways. ^^
you made me realised a lot of things.
some of which even jiejie carnt talk sense into me.
You woke me up,
and made me see that the world isnt just about her.
though i was very emo back then,
i realised that life just had to go on.
if you werent here,
i very much guess i didnt know what to do about it.
or maybe i'll be stuck there.
everything i made my parents worry/sad/angry,
i kinda felt sorry for what i've done,
because of what i remembered about you.
i've always been rebellious ever since i was pri 5.
kinda of funny,
but you seemed to lecture me in my head. ROFL. [:
i'm sorry,
i didnt mean it when i saed that i dislike you.
i'm just angry about what's happening
& just randomly relating to my imagination.
me & my imagination huh?
: x
there's tons of other things i wanna write about,
but i guess my memory isnt working so well.
YELLOW PILLS JUST SUCK
oh wadeva [;
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just to let you know,
SARANG HAE [:
*hides*
GODDDDDDDDD!!!!
Wanwen,
how much i hate to admit but,
white xmas by KATTUN is really nice. ;x
LALALALA, so.... i copied the lyrics over le ;D HEHEHE
LYRICS:
K: 銀色きらめく街 雨が雪に変わった
(Giniro kirameku machi ame ga yuki ni kawatta)
The street glittered with silver as rain becomes snow
夢色眩しい未来見てた あの日のクリスマス
(yumeiro mabushii miraimiteta anohi no CHRISTMAS)
I saw the dream colored future on that day of Christmas
A:あなたを見て笑った (AK)聖なる夜に
(anata wo mitewaratta seinaruyoru ni)
I smiled at you on that sacred night
涙が溢れたね 永遠に(AK)好きなのに 何故
(namida ga afuretane eien ni sukinanoni naze)
The tears overflowed, though I will love you forever, why?
ALL:今雪が舞い散る この空の遠い向こうには
(ima yuki ga maichiru konosora no tooimukou niwa)
Now the snow dances as they fall, and at the sky far beyond here
新しい誰かが待つ 消せぬ想い抱きながら
(atarashii dareka ga matsu kesenuomoi dakinagara)
someone new is waiting, holding on to a feeling that will never fade
N:あの頃笑い合った 何も怖くなかった
(anokoro waraiatta nanimo kowakunakatta)
We smiled at each other in those days, we were not afraid of anything
T1:あなたの優しさを傷つけた あの日のクリスマス
(anata no yasashisa wo kizutsuketa ano hi no CHRISTMAS)
But I hurt your kindness, on that day of Christmas
U:夢とか希望探して 彷徨うだけ
(yumetoka kibousagashite samayou dake)
I searched for dream and hope, and I found nothing but lost
T2:見上げた空高すぎて 掴めないよ 届くのに 何故
(miageta sora takasugite tsukamenaiyo todokunoni naze)
The sky I look up to is too high, I cannot hold on to it even if I can reach it, Why?
ALL:今雪が舞い散る あの頃の迷わぬ気持ちは
(ima yuki ga maichiru anokoro no mayowanu kimochiwa)
Now the snow dances as they fall, the unhesitating feeling of those days
新しい明日へ続く 二度と戻らないストーリ
(atarashii asuhe tsuzuku nido to modoranai STORY)
continues on to a new tomorrow, a story that will never return
歩き出せば戸惑うけど 手で融けた雪の花びらは
(arukidaseba tomadoukedo tedetoketayuki no hanabirawa)
Even though I will wonder as I start walking, but the snowflakes that melted in my hand
またいつか巡り合って 心確かめるだろう
(mata itsuka meguriatte kokoro tashikameru darou)
will comeback again someday and reassure my heart
this idoit must have shoot the video player thats why we have to change time slot. some scenery we saw from the glass panel
BOOOOOYAH!
didn't post yesterday as mum was HOGGING the com whole night.
anyways, i went out with regina yesterday. [[:
MOVIE watched :
Quantum Of Solace! (cool name huh?!)
RATING: 3/5 (rated by regina), IT was TRILLING :]]
Headed to CATHAY~
regina's 1st time o.o
we bought our tickets for the 2.10pm time slot.
IT WAS A HUGE AUDITORIUM !!!
T_______T but guess what?
it turn out that they had a technical problem with the video player,
and suggested that we either change our tickets to ...
-a later time slot
- or a 1month-valid ticket.
ANGRY SIA!!!! pfft.
the auditorium so pretty and big,
& we sit until so comfy with our popcorns and drinks
then they tell us to get out and change to a later slot.
some of the people, even shouted " complimentery popcorns".
hahaha it was funny, taking the popcorn around eating.
everyone was groaning and cursing.
in the end we decided to change our movie to 3.40
DAMN LORH 1hour later.
shud have changed to 3pm de.
while queuing at the box office waiting to have our tickets changed,
a couple in front of us quarreled with the ticket office de manager
as they have lost their ticket in cinema.
them: " not many people will keep their tickets after they entered the threater right?"
man: " but u have to have that ticket to redeem, i cannot have it changed if u do not have ur ticket"
they angrily went away.
we nearly lost ours lorh, heng ahh~~
we sat at the glass panel there eating our just bought popcorn.
after drinking my drink, i took regina de lai drink.
WO SHUI TONG MA~~ rofl
anyways i wanna read my book,
but regina dun let me T___T
dhen we were snatching the sweet popcorns & taking photos.
MY EMPTY DRINK! :DDDDDD
me and REGINAA :]]] 
BANG!!! hehe~ 
THE ERP OUTSIDE THE CATHAY
Regina says that it's her 1st time seeing an actual ERP?!?!?
anyways, i saw joleen wong at plaza sing.
__ she got GF liao. LAME SHYT.
carnt control my laughing.
but her gf quite okay looking, or maybe not?
didnt see properly.
EEEE BUDDEN JOLEEN GO HIGHLIGHT HER HAIR?!?!?
ma de, i wan highlight my hair la!!!!
BLEACH, DARK RED, BLACK~~~
after movie we headed to hougang to buy her white shoes for performance(?)
THE MOST FUNNY THING IS THAT...
We chased after the train ...
but she suddenly stop...
& i just jumped into the train on time.
carnt stop laughing on the train.
people must have thought that i'm mad.
WAITED for the next train at lil india x___X
SO WEIRD LA waiting there. __
reached hougang mall.
ate icecream though, stomach cramp.
must be crazy, but who cares ;]]]]]
& bus home soon after.
HEHE IN TIME FOR DINNER.
watched TV till 9.
let mum use com for like 2 hours?
she say wait a while more finishing,
so i went to bathe.
came out see the timmer left 2mins.
i went into room and hug my dear bolster cause i miss it.
CAME OUT mum was rewatching.
dhen she scolded me
"CANNOT USE A WHILE MORE AH?!"
nahbei, not like i never let u use right?!??!
*(&#Q*(&E*(#@^*&
i went into room cause i was fuucking pissed off.
THEN THE BLOODY MSN KEEP RINGING.
like i have anything to play with other than the com?
BLOODY IDOIT.
like u ever bought me any thing to play with anyways.
dhen i sms-ed viv.
her dad using com.
ME: " O_O , wadeva i canrt use the com too"
was so pissed off that i didnt go out & just sleep.
well, as well bah, since i was tired and blah blah.
WHY CARNT MUM LET ME QUICKLY USE THE COM
TO POST THE BLOODY GUILD POST AND THE POST I HAD FOR YTD,
SO I CAN GO TO SLEEP PEACEFULLY?!!?!?!
DAMN.
i threw my bolster off bed yesterday, because i was angry that i kept recalling all those " i shouldnt be shouting at mum for using the com over time" blah blah blah. __ SO WHAT IF IM BAD. WELL BE THAT WAY, IM ALL ALONG LIKE THAT. who cares if i changed or not.
felt sorry for my dear bolster, dhen picked it up in the middle of the night and hug it to sleep till this morning.
HEHE MUNNCHED MANGO CAKEEEE. LOVES~~~ ^^
END OF POST.
PS/ being a good kid suck, cause i will not get what i wan. * evil laughter*
MORE BORED DHEN USUAL~!
haha!!! it was a good laugh editing AUG's photo. woke up at 10++ today. i need to go school and submit my consent form which i had forgotten to give yesterday. WADEVAAAAA! LoL. loaded my whole audition file into my camera de SD card. I'm going to repair Yuzhen's de audition.
checked my stocks and played audi. bus-ed to sch and submitted form. THE CANTEEN IS LIKE EMPTY??!??! only one store open. went to eat my lunch in the middle of a deserted canteen. PHEW~ SCARY. left as quickly as i can, when i found out only ANG JU LANG ownself using laptop in the canteen. OMGGGG. headed for yuzhen house.
"POOOOOF, DONG DONG DONG~~ I'M HERE"
i went in and HOG the com! HIJACKKKKKKER! it's a 6 year old computer which work effing slow. but very good alrdy. if it's a computer my mum/dad/bro use. i doubt it will work at all. anyways... i keep hang & yuzhen keep look at me and laugh!!!
yuzhen: " computer 不喜欢你啦！~ "
*slightly kick CPU *
yuzhen: " AIYOOO, *shift cpu back* 它坐那边这么舒服，你去踢他!"
* typed wanwan(BOWLBOWL) in yuzhen & wanying de conver. *
WAHAHHAHA CHAN YUZHEN! TAKE THAT! hehhee. can u imagine wanying's reaction!?!??!?
seriously cannot stop laughing with her around. haha &&&& THE PATCH WAS EFFING SLOW. as usual. then we suddenly stop talking and look at the patching speed. so weird lorh. cannot help but laugh again. wahh no wonder my tummy so pain till now. ^^;;
after patched finish, we both ran off to play grandtheft auto.
SUPERRR FUNNY!!!
we go purposely bang into a particular passerby.
then the person pissed off with us and come chasing after us, wanting to fight.
we ran up to a policeman
& GUESS WHAT?
that person kana CAUGHT!!!
wahahhahaha OMG CARNT STOP LAUGHING.
wan ying called when we were buying a suit required for mission.
even weiwei was laughing.
SHE HAVEN'T SAW THAT THING. shhh dun tell her!!
u know, when yuzhen ask WANYING whether she wan talk to me
SHE SHOUTED NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
EVIL EVIL T____T heartbreak alrdy la. ROFL
played with yuzhen till 430 then went home.
was feeling crappppppy and so high.
helped my bro in editing the song for video.
DIDNT KNOW HE GONNA PUT MY PICTURE INSIDE OSO LORH.
wahlaoooooo. kana sabo.
hahaha and vivian is HIGHHHHHHH :DD
*sings barney song * OKAY LAME. ;x
watched the video thrice la.
so funny. [;
YAY!! tmr going movie.
BUT WAHLAO idk what to watch?
hehe i wan bowling.
IN CONCLUDSION, IM SO HAPPY TODAY ;DD
ps/I LOVE CHAN YUZHENNNNN, never fails to make me laugh. :DDDDD
ps// TODAY IS A CRAZY DAY.
yes, the LRT track.
Kinda chatted with huimin while waiting for KES(slowwwwww) to come. We saw her walked home. then i was imitating that i was on the phone with her because she was talking on phone. keep laughing. :D played swings, & reminded me of vivian trying to stick on me -.-
Got the Urge to go to that exact place, but still ^^ i didn't. maybe some other time. WEICHANG came & volunteeraily invited everyone to my house??!?! zzz-ed, but min obviously go with kester de ma, so left me and weichang at Bus-stop there. BUS-ed home. so bored can? x.x
weichang HOG-ed the COMPUTER!!! he say lent me play psp but dun let me load games into it. wahlao. T___T i was like super bored & went of to watch TV. i fell asleep while watching?? pek la. SUPER SIAN Lorh! * decided not to let weichang come and dota liao* didnt go read twilight cause i was feeling lazy.
& weichang asked: " eh why just now u below her block never call her down?"
which my reply was: " When did u ever see us talk ever since that time? -.- "
went out to eat with family, in the end miss-ed my TV show. wtf?! AIYO so unhappy. hmph! i wanna change our cartoon channels all into entertainment and movie channels, ANIMAXXXXXXX. in the end, daddy was nagging and mum got pissed off at him which TADAH`` no more changing. SHYT U!
Kester send me link. guess what! earned me more dhen 5k that day. i sold most of my stocks & bought 1k more. wait till it double then sell bah. :D read the guide of the stock. 15/30. neopets is sure slow in earning.
& did i forget to mention, vivian intended to wake me up at 6.48(i think), but i slept like a log till 7 :DDDDDD but...but...but... school starts at 8am!!!!!!!!
oh wadeva, i switched on the com and loaded some files into thumbdrive which i happen to find out that AUDITION PROGRAMME is ........*drum roll *....... 3 GIGABYTES!!! __ so effing big horh! met regina at bus stop
& tadahh`` yay we are late tgt :D she keep pushing me lorh cause i keep slack walk slow slow.
ps/ Life suck, & i'm ROCKing (stone) through it.
ps// still rotting at home. DAMN!! i wan bowling
炸酱，炸酱，炸酱面！ Labels: Daily Tots, Food
HOHOHOHO! GUESS WHAT?!
i went out with my darling,
CYZ, & her sis to eat JJ noodles today :DDDDD
Though Vegetarian meal,
but still IT'S YUMMMMMMMY.
well excluding the 2 BIG LETTUCE i had in my bowl,
so unlike the crunchy looking cucumbers in the picture I've post -.-
after eating,
i feel so bloated la!
now i know how's my neopet's feeling every time i overfed it ;x
walked to Hougang mall,
because Weiwei (aka -LOLLIPOP-X3) meeting her friends there.
& WE ARE ONEEEEEE FRIGGING HOUR EARLY?!
tsk tsk.
we went to buy ice cream to eat. [:
finally saw her friends.
& there she pop-ed off and throttled along with them.
abandoning me and CYZ~ T.T
haha jkjk
& we decided to STALK her while finishing the icecream in our hands!!
we were deciding about the place we stand so she cannot spot us,
then suddenly a RETARDED idea pop-ed up in my head.
" zhen, ehh i go there and stand in front of that mirror so that it reflects my retarded smile at her. she loook bag, then look up, suddenly see me CHUA TIO."
seriously i can't stop laughing about that idea lorh.
Yuzhen was like pissed off,
cause she was trying to eat her ice cream and i keep make her laugh with retarded things.
anyways, we continued stalking them till they reached arcade.
&&&&&&&& THEY FOUND OUT WE WERE STALKING THEM.
we that lousy meh??? * audience: YEAH DUH?*
okay fine.
i fell and trip over myself in the arcade,
which was EFFING EMBARRASSING but somehow i still can laugh.
CYZ was so mean to keep laughing at me
and say that was the best laugh she had got in years.
wasted money again & went home after that.
rode the long way back home on LRT
sky isn't pretty today,
was happy that i didn't rot at home again :D
going out on Friday, watching the coffin.
TMR STILL HAVE SCH. OMEEGAWD. i forgot about that.
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i can't figure what had happen, but obviously it's harder to talk le. been trying effing hard these few days, & I'm almost giving up. thought it was okay le, but still yeah -.- *sighs* but nvm ^^, NEVER GIVE UP ;D & dun emo too much okay, eyes will pop and brains will cook. i think mine already medium rare.
Labels: Daily Tots, Emo, PIL
So.. i asked vivian
"viv, where do i stand? 'cause currently i feel that i like treading on water trying very hard not to drown in it."
& she couldn't give me an answer with a straight meaning to it.
honestly, i was feeling very sad about it.
But i thought it through,
& i realised that almost everyone is the same.
& blame it on the word have that much meaning to it. HMPH!!!
AN ADDITIONAL POINT TO POINT OUT ABOUT "LOVE"
Love is a feeling of missing someone, wanting to be with that person so on and so fro, even if u had a big quarrel or anything of such.
it's like it doesn't matter if both of u quarrel or fight or anything, because after that incident, you will be missing that person even if u didnt talk for months, days or even years.
that feeling just dun change, even if someone reminded you of the person u used to love, still you would want to meeet him holding even a lil bit of that feeling u once had.
That Feeling only weaken due to time but it will never be entirly gone (unless you really hate that person to the core because he did something so wrong to u, & the mention of the person name will make u wan to murder him.)
for example, a MAN abusing his wife. not many people will stand that circumstances & will immeadiatly file for divorce ( obviously a era like now ) but that wife loves her husband and decided to endure with it.
& IF UR THINKING IM SAYING THE GUY IS RIGHT, NO HE'S NOT. that guy obviously making use of his wife, so on and so fro. no, he doesn't love her. because as compared to the quarreling couple, both of them love each other and think for the other's feeling after the quarrel or wan to make up for it. BUTTTT ABUSEEE ... IS OBVIOUSLY constantly.
SO.. see the difference now?
i realised that LOVE, is just like that.
because there will be a lot of people entering and leaving ur life,
making your heart skip following by crushes so on and so fro,
during ur entire lifespan.
NOT very often that there's 2 people who can last long enough together the whole life,
which is why Divorce's Agency is making so much money now,
& ROM is getting very busy with fussy people who can't make up their mind.
p.s/ MY HEART WILL NOT CHANGE EVEN IF TIME IS iNFiNiTY, 'cause in that lil pumping thing lives a YOU that only i know, whom i love dearly.
