[[Rock it :D*]]
PALE FACE.
it didn't stop in the morning.
i didn't want to wake up.
to come to my senses.
to think about facts that are linked from one's decision.
my principle forbids me to think that way.
but sometimes, i just want to do things my way.
but i'll will not wish for things that's against my principle.
so, all the best for u ;D
because if u aren't, i'm neither.
haha, a lot of gaps of missing info in the 2 para abv.
i'm dumbstruck now, great.
what to do today???
I DUN CARE.
I'M SPENDING THE REST OF MY MONEY EATING GOOD STUFFS.
like what??
i dunno.
i like lamb chop.
maybe i go swensen eat.
cost more than 15bucks.
i dunno.
suddenly dun feel like eating again.
I DUNNO LAAAAA.
i think i go disturb trashie from her sleep.
erm. HI people.
-sits down and drink vodka-
erm... went viv house today bah...
study. -.-
bro was like, go boonlay study. pro.
viv woke me up at 9 plus.
then i got back to sleep till about 10 plus.
msn a while.
then went to bathe and got out of the house.
sat all the way to boonlay again and went to her house.
studied and taught a bit.
lunch-ed at 3 plus,
i went down to buy.
then slack all the way dun want to do work le.
i... FEEEEEEEEEL ... sadded if u want the truth.
what we said we would do wasnt done when u came back.
anyways, all was called off isnt it.
i think countdown also bah.
you said u want to go back.
but... we couldnt even talk to each other,
and would be even further apart then just boonlay and pungol.
ANDDDDDDDD THERE'S NO INTERNET THEREEEEEE DON'T YOU REMEMBER//
haix.
-CRIES-
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST HEED ADVICE AND NOT LET IT GET TO ME,
afterall it's you who's sad and i'm suppose to cheer you up.
so i cannot get sad also ;D
but who cares. just let me be for now...
IS MY NORMAL HEARTBEAT VERY FAST, i wonder.
VIV say superfast just now.
-continue to drink vodka-
warm warm de ;]
ANYWAYS.
I'M DETERMINE TO CHEER YOU UP ;D
not sure if i could, but i'll try.
and just to say.
CHAN RAK TUEH,
if it makes you happier go back bah. ;]
i'll be happy for u.
WHY is it so hard to TRUST....
witchy ahhhh, i still dunno logic or instinct better.
i scared if i follow logic now, one day i'll regret it.
but on the other hand like you said instinct make you stupid...
and it does... ;x
haix....
i'm lost again.
okay posting about what i want to do.
and what i will not get to do maybe forever le.
i want to ...
go watch the sky quietly with someone
cycleee
a quiet yet peacful and happy day.
stop doubting.
go kbox.
play monopoly
go punggol beach on a windy day.
fly kites.
eat prata.
do everything that i planed to do.
go LRT track there.
EMOOOOO at somewhere quiet with someone understanding.
I WANTTTT TO BE AT A QUIET PLACEEEEEE LA.
I JUST WANT TO BEEEE WITH ..... one person and just sit and stare into the sky.
and time just fly past and NOBODY come disturb the bubble that we set up inbetween us.
I DUN WAN TO KEEP TALKING AND TALKING AND HYPER AND JUMP AND SCREAM.
i just want to slow down for once.
been changing too much..
i hate changes.
i hate undecided decisions.
i want a more stable day.
=======================
DECIDED TO GO WITH LOGIC
-happy with my decision-
whats with winning and losing as long as i got you.
whats with betrayal and cheating as long as you dun get hurt.
my instinct dun work anymore.
i've lost everything to changes that i've made.
LALALAAAAAA,
okay. IM SO HAPPY.
okay calm down....
even though wayney chan habven give me bday present
cause he said the vodka isnt present.
BUT I'M STILL POSTINGGGG WHAT I RECIEVED THIS YEARRRR.
OKAY OKAY.
sorriesssss dear ones,
that this year de pressie seemed very unsincere.
seriously i dun wan repeat things that i've done before for another person.
and i'm outta brainjuice.
mainly cause i kept going out this few days that i totally couldnt think of anything to do.
ugh excuses ;[
BUT,
omgggg, im so touched man.
MOLESTTTTTT. ;x
HAHAHA kidding.
i recieveddddd the best presents for my bday even if some isnt on the day itself.
AND I ALWAYS FUCKING FORGET TO WRITE A CARD.
wahlao ;[ so pissed off with myself.
LALALLA.
the following list is of no particular order.
TRASHIE - RINGGGG ;]
JERMAIN - NOTE BOOK which is nice enough not to have lines so i can drawwww. - happy-
WAYNEY CHAN - VODKAA 40percent alcohol. some say i'll die from liver failure. -shrugs-
WITCHY - BDAY KISS. lol ;x
ZIQIIII - FROGGIE resting thing. i think it's a xmas present but dun care la count bday also.
VER- BDAY CAKEEE. omg she baked for me siaaaaaaa OMGOMGOMG - jumps -
BRYAN - EARSTUD spikey de, cannto fit laaaa fucking earhole not big enough ;[
JIAMIN - FROGGIE dunno what thing. for me to put my heart in there before i go to sleep. ;x
ICY AND THE OTHERS - for beingggg there to countdown for me ;D.
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LAST BUT NOT LEAST.
VIVIAN YUEN XIAO TONG.
HEHE she give me a box of random stuffsssss.
AND A CARDDDD WHICH MAKES ME WANNA CRY -hides-
T----T i'm so happy. ;D
and all adds up to ......................
THE HAPPIEST BDAY GIRL IN THE WORLD.
okay just eaten dinner and read viv's blog.
wished that i didnt eat at all le.
felt sadded.
and being sad dun go well with having a full stomach.
cause being sad dun feel like eating.
I DUN GET WHY EVEN DINNER THEY ARE SO FUCKING LAZY.
tmd, like CHICKEN like that.
wait to eat only.
KNN.
PIGS LA.
dun even fucking bothered to cook liao.
feel hungry just shout they also haven't eat.
i'm fucking angry lorh.
MY allowence doesnt even INCLUDEEEE DINNER
and i'm expected to settle my dinner everyday.
there isnt even proper cooking ingredients now.
was thinking my brain out what to cook
because THERE'S NO VEGEEEEE. ewww ewww.
i missed vege.
okay nvm.
HEHE I TOLD TRASHIE I WOULD EAT VINEGER ;D
cause she make me jealous that she's eating steamboat.
i made her fail her missionnnnn, cause i emo-ed.
i will not say why i emo.
i'm just gonna eat a sweet and try to stop the puking sensation.
GONNA go read vivian's dunno what message in the box.
i wonder which colour is it.... o.o
and later, i'm gonna post all the present i recieved this year. ;D
gonna try to be happy.
to be continued...
'' "我爱你"
不好意思噢,刚才我收到信息说,一定要我跟十个好朋友说“我爱你”,2009年我才会好过丫…哈哈…为了明年,你也像我一样牺牲下…跟好朋友说一次“我爱你”吧^^。'' - an sms i recieved from huiru.
hahah i nearly got tricked. but i felt that something fishy about that msg and scrolled down.
well, almost everyone got tricked. LIKE TRASHERRRR the baka got tricked.
i'm gonna post almost everyone's reply, for those who dun like it just tell me i'll remove it.
shaomin was the 1st to reply and to get tricked.
shaomin ; O.O WOW I love u too f3
me; go scroll down ;D
shaomin; T.T
Audrey; HAHAHAHA. You love me uh? Woah so uncalled for man. HAHAHA. Lets get married then.
me; scroll down. nooooooo... i dun wan marry you ;x
Audrey; I got scroll down la. Haha. Lets get married!
me; NONONONONONONONO..... LOL ;D
trashie; Wa? Wads wif Tht? Haha ily 2
me; go scroll downn.
trashie; LOL? Nvm i say 2 u in eng also counted ba
me; LOL then i say to you in thai, chan rak tueh. my friend demanded that i marry with her.
trashie; Eeyer dun let her rob u - snatch - YAY ur mine!
witch; I l0ve u muacks. Kiss.
me; omggg another one, scroll down.
witch;I gt see la. Im just sh0w my passi0n toward u.
me; my friend insisted that i marry herr LOL. blah blah -forgotten what i said-
witch; Lol marry mie ma.
me; later the guys who want jio you de come hunt me down. x.x
witch; W0nt la. Im unwanted de.
wanwen; ??
me; scroll down.
wanwen; LOL.okay:D.so.when are you wearing your tube?
hey seriously i dunno what has this sms got to do with me wearing tube.
so the rest i wun post le.
HAHA I WAS BORED.
ps/ instinct or logic.... it's hard to choose.
OKAY THIS GONNA BE SUPER LONG... FROM 25TH DEC.
.... here goes nothing... enjoy ;D
MY PLATE ;D chocolaty choco cake.
MY 1ST CAKE. FROM MUM. -hugs and kisses-
picture taken by bryan.
2ND CAKE FROM AUNT. BRANDED STUFF sia. from ''goodwood'', some hotel in singapore. 50 DOLLARS FOR 1KG, i heard. 
THE ONE AND ONLY PRICELESS CAKE.FROM VER!!!!! she bake it for me!!!! SWEET. 
NARH! there is it again. mmm this looked a bit werid.
SEE! this is the outcome after it undergo the surgery done by my brother.BROKEN HEARTEDDDDDD. evil doctor. 
WE ATE IT ALL UP!! bryan says it's fattening and ate 90 percent of them up.SEE I SO PRO. Omg increasement of weight! -hides-
THERE, TRASHER!! I TOLD YOU that i gonna ate cake till morning.
the messy dining table.ESTATIC! though we didnt talk much .... =.=
HEY LOOK SANTA'S CLIMBING THE TREE!
Esssstacyyyyyy!
retarded look... =.=
JER WENT OUT ME WITH YESTERDAY!!! ;D
OTHERS.
BRYANN WITH TRASHIEEEE.
SOME hp accessories that i bought for jermain. ;D
he says that he's meditating. EXCUSESSS.
you just dun wanna talk to me right?????? T----T''
ONCE a wrong decision is made and everything just crumbles after it. i'm throughly done with you. - xAryth
YESTERDAYYYY.
early in the morning went out to meet ICY.
met NOOOBIE for the 1st time.
she was so quiet lorh.
will she couldnt speak chinese, so our convers kinda left her out.
SORRIES T------T
trasher and the others came pretty late.
Lunched at yoshi,
and checked out cold storage.
VODKAAAAAS. ;D
anybody can buy me somemore?
ANYWAYS,
COLD STORAGE SELLS OVERPRICED BARCADY BREEZERS.
DON'T BUY FROM THERE.
it's like 6 dollars at coldstorage,
and 4.50 at NTUC.
SEE THE 1.50 difference??
a lot sia.
we run from one place to another...
just to buy vodkas and sparkling juice.
lame right??
but nevermind. ;DD
BOUGHTTTT OUR FILL.
and went to ICY's house.
trashie went to find her friend. ;]
ICY's house is like M-I-L-L-I-O-N-S of kiloMETERS away from the MRT STATION.
i scared witchy, noobie and SHAO de make up melt sia.
i think because not many have ezlink with them thats why didnt take bus.
BBQ was fun,
very successful.
played poker cards
and drink the vodka and sparkling juice we bought.
catched up on each other and everything. ;D
but when we go buy charcoal,
viv called.
she cried.
heartbreak... to hear her cry.
anyways she will be comming back on the 28th.
I MISSSSSSS YOU TOOs. mismismismismismismis.
i left icy's house at 11:46pm 16mins before my birthday.
i dun wan to go de.
i want to wait countdown de.
THEN MY BROTHER THERE BUGGING ME GO.
say what if i dun go he go back 1st.
OFCOURSE IF HE GO BACK ALONE,
mum sure ask and blame me de right??
wahlao.
then he give me the fuck up face and attitude lorh.
walk his own way.
HE KNOW THAT I CANNOT CONTACT HIM cause his phone no credit.
annoying person.
MAKE ME SO SAD ON MY BDAY.
what shit ma.
anyways over it le.
put that case aside thanks to TRASHIE and JER.
though that chaolao person keep support him.
nvm lorhhhh lalalala.
slept near 4am in the morning.
was CRAPING WITH JIAMIN, BULLYING JER.
TODAY
woke at 7am.
go reply jermain cause i fell asleep.
FELT AS MY BODY WAS HARDEN OVER NIGHT.
go disturb TRASHIE early in the morninggggggg. ;DDD
spam spam spam till like 10am before i started going to bathe and everything.
we are meeting at like 1030am
lol. i was freaking late.
SORRIES TRASHIE I ALWAYS LATE.
she waited for me at guardian while eating seaweed.
we were both very hungry,
so breaunch-ed before going to shop.
SHOP FOR LIKEEEEEEE 2 HOURS PLUS didnt find anything.
OH OH WE SAWWWWW WITCH AT BUGISSS.
she was like '' GIVE YOUUUU XMAS KISS''
ytd give de is '' BIRTHDAY KISS''
L-O-L-ED.
TRASHIIIIIIE BOUGHT ME A RINGGG!!!!!
lol ofcourse, i choose de then she just buy for present sake la.
okay whatever,
couldnt find any present then,
in the end i went to buy 2 box of choco then was 1/2 hour late again.
BRA WENT MISSINGGGGGGG!!!!! BRYAN LA. think till where huh???
finally came.
went vivo.
slacked.
didnt watch movie.
i want to watch - bed time stories.
miss jer telling me story.
though like 2 times only.
LOL.
okay, must forget such stuffs.
fan zheng ... ... you know what. ;x
eat subway 6 incher.
home-ed soon.
eat steamboat with mum.
watch lil nonya
and sing bday song
and eaet CAKES.
omg i told trasher i eat till morning since i so happy.
but i eat 3 pieces want to puke le.
i have 3 cakes this year.
one from aunt.
one from MUMMMM, she buy from polarrrrr - WOAHHHH-
LAST BUT NOT LEAST.
- WIPE TEARS -
FROM VERRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
she bakeeeeee one for me siaaa.
IT'S LIKE OMGGG, IM SO TOUCHED TOUCHED TOUCHED.
CRIES....
happy, hyper, jump jump, run about, bang into wall.
everytime someone precious to me de bday, i want to bake cake
GUESS WHAT, STUPID OVEN DUN WORK.
must make papa repair everything. ;[
I'm GONNA LOVEEEEEE YOU, VERRRRRRR. LOL jking. ;D
anyways...
WAYNE SAY HE GONNA GIVE ME 40 PERCENT DE VODKAAAA.
THOUGH LIKE 1/4 drank.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. happy. FLOATS.
i very exhausted right now....
dieing...
GONNA POST LIAO.
wait ...
wait...
a fewmore enters and craps.
.. I MISS VIVIAN YUEN XIAO TONGGGGG.
AND I'VE DECIDED TO CALL HER XIAOTONG MAKE HER PISSED. hahahhaha
SARANG HAEEEEEEE EVERYONE.
thanks ah jer and qi go out with me today.
thought that you wouldnt but you did anyways.
that was enough. ;D
TRASHIEEEEEE I LOVEEEEEE YOU. ;D
the ring rules kays.
WAYNEY I WANT VODKAAA.
i hope i dun die
VERRR, SERIOUSLY YOU ROCK MY SOCKS.
though they kinda in washing machine now.
BRO ATE THE WHOLE CAKE.
next time bake me somemore.
i'll make you something niceeeee for you bday.
who knows when must tell me!!!
PS/ TODAY IS CRAZY
OKAY.
i spent the last 2 hours and 29mins searching for jer's blog.
i dun think i'll be able to find it.
thought i found it, but i dun think so?
erm it's locked and is a url she used before.
i dun think anyone linked her.
gone to priviate blog mode again bah.
read ahqi blog.
huimin didn't linked but i found it out somehow with help from icy ;D
thanks man!
qi blog easier to find bah.
cause like everyone know.
couldnt go from siliang there,
as he never link people de.
so... lalalala from shaooooo's there!
HURAAAAAAY I GOT MY ANSWER. but it made no difference =.=
One thing till now i NEVER did understand.
jer; " nothing should have changed.... "
no, everything had changed.
qi 's like jer.
they both arnt talking to me.
jer, cause we quarrel and everything?
qi ignored me everytime i talk to her.
expect when she wants me to answer her question.
then i wanna talk,
but after answering than no more le.
BUT... what i dun understand is that...
why both of them didnt occupy their xmas with anything??
and why are they thinking about what happened last year if they hate me that much.
about xmas, about count down.
does it matter as much to you guys as much as it mattered to me?
just when i finally settled on the thought that it's nothing to you,
but everything to me.
it took me months and some help from viv
just to put all the "it's all over now and there's nothing i could do." and live with it.
but afterall, i never let anything go.
no, i never did.
everything means i rather not lived my life than forget about it.
everything means, it belongs to me and nobody is gonna take this memory away from me
and i'll protect it, by all means.
something that SUPER SUPER DUPPPPER IMPORTANT TO ME.
it's not just the memory.
everything in it.
HEY I'M NOT SAYING IT FOR FUN OVER HERE.
I'M SERIOUSLY DEAD SERIOUS.
try me. O-o
whenever anyone mentions about you guys,
i still go on and on about how nice things were back then.
and mention that i truly hated myself for making things the way it is.
but nothing could be done now, isnt it?
i swear, i changed a lot.
and everybit of reason i changed is because i hope that someday...
but it aint gonna happen right?
i doubt it will.
i'm currently freaking everybit out on what exactly your thinking.
i'm really scared but i wish you would be here.
i've a urge to go there, but always hesistated.
strong desire to go, even if it's just a look.
i know you'll never see this post anyways...
nevermind...
haix...
i just want to let u know.
i've changed.
but like you said...
things will never be the same anymore.
i'm still crying sometimes,
but i clearly know
that nothing is reversible.
IMY.
finished work at 2pm plus...
then vivian called me when i was at the busstop waiting for bus to AMK HUB
boarded the bus soon
and mum called.
SHOUTED ABOUT MY HAND PHONE BILLS THING,
BUT I JUST SKIPED HER.
will not regret once. xP scold lorh dun care...
sorry, very rebelious, part of my charactor.
continue talking to vivian on mrt till she said she gtg for lunch.
then met up with icy, siliang and my bro at cityhall.
walked to penisula shopping center.
i have no idea why vivian said it's hard to find.
super easy can?
okay la, i admit is siliang leading the way.
but quite easy once u been there before.
went in, bought the back and called vivian.
then she was like OMG when she heard icy voice.
whatever.
then she hung up, i think.
i called witch,
telling her we heading to find her at chalet.
and poof we all went to downtown east.
returned siliang 15bucks for kbox le.
5 of us bike at Pasir Ris park.
with my bro always lagging behind.
and me and icy talking about guild politics??
thats what siliang said.
my 50 dollar is MO MING QI MIAO DE FINISHED de.
we wasted one hour of bike riding fee and went back into chalet.
interact a bit and start fire for them.
HEY, im not failure lorh.
is icy say start center dun play too much fire starter. xP
no la, not i pro la
hahhaa it's their fire starter good AND carcoal oso.
in the end, we all ended up playing poker till 8pm
and went off w/o eating any bbq stuffs cause we too paiseh.
WITCHHHHH INSISTED OF TAKING PHOTO OF US AS A GROUP.
guys which are obviously all camera shy,
for i dunno why??
LIKE THE CAMERA WILL KISS THEM LIKE THAT.
erm... maybe witch will .... O-O
erm, then we mac-ed and bus-ed home.
the talk of politics came up again.
xmas eve at ICY house oso.
YAYYYYYYY, I WAN TON LA.
mum sure nag de lorh.
heard no one is going back to PENANG.
cause bro say he no wan go back.
then mum canceled with my aunt.
WAHLAO LEH,
I WAN OWNSELF AT HOME LORH.
HAIX.
right now,
i looking forward to when i get all my pay.
and xmas eve bbq party at icy house.
ANDDDDD...VIVIAN TO COME BACK AND GO OUT WITH ME EVERY SINGLE DAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHA I THINK I REALLY SIAO LE.
one wholeeee holiday for that 5 days.
so dumb right?
yeah la i know la.
OHH,
I DRAGGED WITCH FRIEND TO KBOX WITH US ON LIKE 27TH DEC.
which means the 1st outing with vivian,
will be a group outing.
and we are not watching movies 1st....
not expected.
but nvm, WITCHHHHH SEE I SO KIND.
SHIFT EVERYTHING cause u free that day only ;DDD
ps/ SERIOUSLY JERMAIN CHU CHOY NING, CAN U TELL ME WHAT ARE U GONNA DO THIS XMAS???????, CAUSE IM HANGING DOWN HERE DUNNO WHETHER TO GO AS PLANED AS WHAT U HAVE SAID EARLIER THIS YEAR??
YESTERDAY WAS HIGH,
TODAY WAS HIGHER.
keith,
i dun get why u are like that lorh...
like since when did i misuse ur account or anything?
bu shuang say out la.
settle once and for all,
dun duo duo chang chang everything.
okay,
truthfully,
yesterday was the 1st time i went to kbox.
was like ZI HIGH lo. ;[
i was sing sing sing chorusss,
COMEON LET'S SING TOGETHER
- imitating singers on stage -
EVERYONE LOOK AT ME,
then turn away.
DIIAO ME LORHHHHHH.
then they all laugh WHEN I GIVE THE REJECTED LOOK.
hahaha okay whatever.
all was having fun.
BUT WE GOT CHEATED
because i think i didnt get the student package
and ended up playing 19 dollars per person ;[
sorries to everyone wallet horh...
TODAY,
went out with
trash,
hart,
milo,
icy
and some fam-fren of trash.
PLAYED WATER LIKE PRE SCHOOLERS
in the sky park at vivo city.
at 1st half wet.
then kana push into the water entirly.
LIKE O-M-G.
hahhaa everybody got wet la.
went to changed and headed to kbox again.
SIAO RIGHT??
witch say we rich.
right....
I BANKRUPT LE LA ;[
siliang help us pay 1st.
so we still owe him money.
-JUMP JUMP AND SING -
we were all practically snatching mikes
and jumping on sofa
SCREAMING OUT LUNGS OUTTTTT.
hahaha.
everyone sang UPTOWN GIRL.
and the whole day was just so enjoyable.
HIGH MANNNNNN.
this the way an outing shud be.
hahhaa I LOVE YOU GUYS ;DDD
baka chanel so pro lorh,
make me into pillow LOL.
LALALLALAA I WANT TO SINGGGGG.
EVERYBODY LET'S JAM IT OUT LOUDDDDDD.
okay too high... i think i go get some sleep...
yawns...
OMG, i'm like suppose to blog la...
yesterday got pissed off by ...
then called ah viv,
actually i thought a lot before i called la.
but i still called,
because i know that i couldn't do anything else without thinking about it.
i called,
surpressing anger and other emotions.
then dunno what,
then in the end keep laugh.
haix no mood to blog la.
so many things happening.
vivian 26th then come back.
haix.
there's a few recordings i had yet post.
guild outing is around the corner.
zzzzzzzz HEN FAN LAAAA,
SOMEBODY ELSE DO THESE THINGS LA,
SO IRRITATED SIA.
I WANT TO JUST GO AND SLEEP AND HAVE A NICE DAY ;[
YOU KNOW, i always on the computer at night thinking to blog.
then always forgets the moment I'm on,
after 10 mins,
sian i go sleep le.
than remember i haven't blog.
by then too lazy come out again to on com.
whatever lorh.
went out to meet icy at bunk today.
he treat leh.
OMGGGGGG HE'S LIKE SUCH A SWEET PERSON LA.
but keep tell cold jokes.
NVM, anyways we went shopping for his ring and necklace
and it turns out that he dun like the ring.
weichang like choosing everything for him.
weichang bought a ugly one sided glove which cost 10bucks.
hahaha, okay we went to kovan,
eat dinner,
and went off to work while icy went home.
work was sian.
chee bye la, wei chang got 3 deals immediately,
while me and shawn no deal at all.
suay dao bua si la.
I WANT TO GO BISHAN AND WORK.
and i want to clinch deals.
and i bloodily need MONNEHHHHH NOW.
NOT MONKEH, TRASH`!!!
lol TRASH currently going crazy over,
the monkey emoticon collection i had.
hyper daoooo... LOL i oso hyper le la.
trashiie such a nice person too ;DDDD
so happy.
at least i put that LEO person aside for now.
wanna call Vivian,
to clear my never ending chain of thoughts.
but never did.
NOW she asking me what b'day and Xmas pressie i wanna.
i never thought of it before la... x.x
all i ever wanted every Xmas,
was a memorable and happy day.
okay i wun say things like,
actually i dun wish to celebrate this year.
but as the date came closer around the corner,
i feel afraid that i would spoil the entire day with my expectations and everything.
people who dunno me, will not know.
i think i'll spend my countdown to new year at the same place this year.
i wonder ...
what will happen..
who will be there with me..
how will i feel being there, since it's been so long..
why am i hoping that somehow i could see you there at all..
mmm Vivian, do you wanna me write for you??
I'm not sure if i could even write at all now.
my brain just jam at the thought of writing.
i think it's part of me letting go bah...
seriously it's been long since i write.
i think i will.
gimme sometime to think.
i hope i hadn't forgotten how to write poems.
currently wearing long selves and a hoodie pullover.
surprisingly comforting seh.
i smell nice.
i think i wanna sleep soon.
i forgotten what i wanna write,
SEE LA TRASHHHHHHHH MAKE ME FORGET.
so all of the above is...
half what i want to type
half what i'm thinking, when trashiie was talking to me on msn.
ANYWAYS, to end it off...
TRASHHHHHIE I'LL MISS YOU, since you getting your com to repair wireless.
MISS ME TOO KAYS.
i miss vivian and ahjer. dummmmmmb me.
KAOS LA, I SUPER NICE ALREADY OKAY??
I TALK NICELY.
ZZZ-ED PEK LA.
CHEE BONG LA, YOU THINK YOU VERY BIG WORHS.
FUUUUUCK LA.
I *** ****** ******* **** ****
ZZZ-ED.
URGGGH, DISGUSTING.
WAH LAN LEH. JKLDASJDASJKLDKJLA
BLAH BLAH ...
OKAY I'M COUNTING EVERYTHING AGAIN.
must change this habit.
forget it... zzz-ed ....
i feel like killing people now.
OMG ARNT THEY THE CUTEST ;DDD
WEEEEEEE, i smell of 2 cute lil gunnie pig, whatever is the spelling.
just came back home from shao's house.
HER GUNNIE PIGS ARE LIKE SO CUTE CAN?
sue me, but i want to kidnap them.
uploads later.
this morning went to bugis with brother.
he give me 25 dollars for xmas pressie.
and wanted me to buy him a bag for xmas.
guess how much it cost?
46 BUCKS. shucks.
burn my pockets.
but who cares, he's happy LOL.
he treated me to lunch at KFC,
and we went to bugis street to buy his beautiful jacket.
YAY, and expenses for kbox will be paid by him.
not bad seh. 
the bag he wanted me to buy. nice bah ;DDD
me and my shy shy de xiao didi. LOL sounds so wrong.
anyways,
left him as i'm heading to meet shao and jia.
forgets about the min.
I KEEP CALL WRONG. x.x
cook a lot of stuffs at her house seh.
SPAGETTI, COOKIES.
OMG COOKIES SO FUN.
i play until siao.
KEEP PLAY WITH ARSE AND BITCH.
cuteeeeee si ren le.
but really their body heat made me feel weird x.x
take them out of their cage then put them back in, very often.
i think they dizzy worhs.
kana torture by us.
cook and wash and eat.
LOL tired liao then watch tv.
;DD others came and we went.
surely it's gonna be fun for shao tonight.
all so funny.
rode jia's car back home.
wasn't intending to ride de.
thought of going somewhere.
but in the end still ride back home.
so nice of her to give me a ride, thanks ;D
after bathe, broke down suddenly.
hugged pillow and cried.
i seriously ... miss someone. x;
but it wasnt like crying would make that person return.
so it's a bit ... childish.
i want to meet... that person.
though i'll be scared,
but all the same on what i want to do now.
though it's not like, my change would be seen
but i still want that person to know.
with some hope in my heart that we could be friends again.
would talk like someother people.
FYI, you're someone very very very close to me.
many a times i wanna tell you so much,
but come to think of it,
you're such a distant memory,
and all i could do is to imagine that you're with me.
JUST TO TELL YOU, I MISS YOU more than words could comprehend.
Have you ever wanted to keep someone alive that much that you could even forgo your life?
Have you ever felt so sick, yet no one was around to take care of you?
Yet you recovered in an amazingly short time because all the while you've been wanting to phone that someone, despite that he/she would never come.
Have you ever felt so tired that you ain't really consicious?
Yet picked up the phone and chatted till 2 am in the morning when you have to go to work early in the morning the next day.
- Gwyneth.
Seriously,
THE PAST WEEK HAD BEEN A MAD MAD MAD WEEK,
and i lack of sleep.
gonna be a cute fat panda soon.
THURSDAY,
went out with icy and the some of the guild members.
icy was a very nice person,
though he very cold sia,
keep telling cold joke.
but it was fun around him.
the day activities didn't really go out well,
since it wasn't exactly planned or anything you know??
ended up watching movie.
and cam whoring at the end of the day.
the day didn't end just there,
kana spam ed sms when i homed,
and was msning.
discussion about guild outing never seemed to end.
the best thing was that i was able to keep my energy usage as low as possible.
CALLLLLED VIVIANNN,
and lost track of time when we chatted.
[;
FRIDAY,
was suppose to go to work.
woke up like 7am,
5HOURS of sleep.
great.
but mum wanna go msia.
then drag me out of bed.
i told jianhao i will not be able to go to work today,
since i going msia.
and i never regret one bit about going out.
though i was freaking tired
and pissed off cause i wasn't slim enough to wear SOME BLOODY PRETTY CLOTHES,
which were freaking expensive and mum was willing to buy,
I JUST WASN'T ABLE TO FIT IN. damn
the best thing was,
i found something i was looking for,
which made me screamed like a huge fan of some particular band,
and i watched twilight.
DINNER WAS AMAZINGLY DELICIOUS,
IT'S LIKE A FOOD HEAVEN,
THOUGH IT'S JUST STREET SIDE FOOD.
EVERY SINGLE STALL HAD A PERFECT TASTING DISH.
day ended with discussions of guild event ...
SATURDAY,
woke up at 5am to post guild blog since i promised icy to post it yesterday,
make up-ed and went to MR LEE AND MS ANG's wedding.
MR LEE was ultra sweet,
he sang 2 songs in total for the entire wedding.
i felt that he was brave,
cause he's singing was sucky yet he dared to do it for MS ANG.
MS ANG cried while saying dedications and everything.
my make up wore off because i was sweating under the sun.
cab-ed to jiamin's house and waited for shaomin.
jiamin touched up my make up for me,
with BASHES of powder.
glued my eyelashes.
HER BLOODY BANGALA GUNINE PIG,
urinated on me twice.
like I'm the toilet bowl, __
ROFL.
whatever.
went to vivo to meet with Y2K-wangzi and icy.
Y2K went to meet someone and left us.
icy came and we lunched at sushi teh.
icy so nice, sponsered gst and service charge.
we bought popping candies and went into "toys r us".
damn funny la.
shaomin mood swing and went missing in the bookstore.
icy left us later on to meet someone.
I LOST MY EARPIECE and was freaking sad.
felt like cryinggg man.
I NEED MY EARPIECE.
but whatever.
decided to call viv,
and to think her mum picked up.
then chatted.
background was super noisy since they were having " TEA ".
viv, i swear you will be fatter when u came back from msia.
HHAHAHA ;D okay i'm mean.
from winx to maskrider to transformer.
now baby pink shirt and red shorts.
man, do you get more interesting day by day ♥.
hahaha.
i totally ditched that earpiece thing aside and dun care le.
was esctatic.
ariel said i was crazy,
and almost everyone else said i siao le.
WHO CARES,
I'M HAPPY AND YOUR JUST PLAIN JEALOUS THAT I COULD BE.
;DD
hoshimin was like FAKE LASHES?,
WAHLAO I NEVER SEE.
hahaha so funny.
whatever.
went to sleep soon.
I LOVE JIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIE,
i'm dominating everyoneeeeee. HAHAHHA
okay siao le ;DDDD
was particularly happy with SOMETHING.
seriously im calculative ;P
too bad....
okay this gonna be a short post.
cause i'm currently having headache
and i dun want to think too much about whats happening.
woke at a freaking time of 7.30 with less dhen 5 hours of sleep last night.
need go get to bishan by 9am. JH's mum so nice, buy my chicken rice ;D anyways was super restless today. not enough sleep. cannot concentrate on work at all. slacked through the whole day. only did one file. my aim was 2 files de lorh. nvm.
joyce, aka witch, reached J8 at 5 plus lorh. and i was like lateeeeeeee. actually not, cause we intended to meet at 6 anyways. dinnered with her at some ' hongkong restraurant ' which we have to self service? whatever. anyways, the tea cum coffee is nice to drink and JJ noodles wasnt too bad either. just regreted didnt get my beef brisket. chatted while eating. and randomly we went to watched movie, Beverly hills chiwawa! AND POOF without realising we are in the cinema. LOL. we both kept sms until show started lorh. icy and viv spamming me.
THE SHOW WAS CUTE AND SWEET. lol. idk why i became the ' IGUANA ' in the end. DID YOU KNOW THAT IGUANAS ARE VEGETERIANS? well at least i was the ' sua ku ' one. idk siaaa. witch kept calling me IGUANA -.- greattttt.... my bro must be the mouse!!
after movie, walk around then go home le. JOYCE SENT ME OFF SEH!!! ;x LOL. if you didnt notice, there's this weird person in front of us kept staring. -.- then i stare back, she paiseh dhen look away. ROFL. took some pics tgt and bus came. surprisingly she reached home faster then i did. whalaoooo....
ALMOST MISSED MY BUS STOP, DIDNT EVEN KNOW I WAS IN HOUGANG LE. busy smsing 4 ppl at the same time. ;x the person beside me must have been irritated by my ringtone. HAHAHHA it was nice la.
OKAY LAST PART OF MY POST.
IM VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY SAD. CAUSE VIVIAN WILL BE GONE FOR 2 MORE WEEKS. DANGGGGGGG ;[
GOING OUT WITH ICY TMR!! HOHOHO AMK HUB. SERIOUSLY HE'S MSIA ACCENT IS SUPER STRONG -.- I'M USED TO THIS ACCENT SO IT'S OKAY. ;D MUACKSSSSSS TRASHERRRRRR, YOU'RE SO KIND NOT LIKE SOMEEE GM WHO PS ME LAST SECOND. YAY TRASH GOING OSO ;DDDDDD HIP HIP HURRAY!!
PS/ I HAD A NICEEE AND RANDOM DAY. LOL
i would really miss her if she goes back. she's not even back for a day yet and she's going off again.
but obviously that my reasonings arnt just at my side. what most important is that she dun regret whatever decision she made. ;D somehow i feel that it's more important for her to go back...
we still have the rest of next year. [;
haix. nvm. erm... oh.
okay, phone bill .. is tricky ... o.o BUT WHO CARES -.-
and im gonna suffer from 2nd hand smokeeee. they smoke freaking lots of stick just now. nvm la, lol used to it le anyways. sian la. cannot clinch deal seh. ;[ no pay... whatever i'm not going for work till next week le. tmr eating dinner with witch after work.
mmm... i wan to go out with vivian BADLY ;[ Seriously ... WEEPS. lol. but if she's going back then, cannot go out le lorh. ;[ unless i dun work tmr, but she going out with her aunts. AIYAH no hope la. suan le. =-= it's 1.37 am le. i have only less dhen 6 hours of sleep till i have to wake up and get ready for work.
i envy viv got so many people sms her happy bday, which means i dun, and she's practically waiting for it yesterday midnight. LOL. ;DD YAY i was the 1st, though she kept forgeting about that. talked till 1230 plus... i think the phone bill gonna brust. but i'm gonna pay for it. so i think overall i only have money to go for sentosa outing le. other than that i need to pay dad for my handphone and bills. sad right??
i want to skip going home. it's been long since i went there. I REALLY SHOULD GO BACK TEHRE. i dunno why. but something is pulling me back there. i really wanna meet someone and give a xmas present....
there's a lot in my mind. but i'm either too tired to ponder about them or i'm doing something to distract myself. sian...
