[[Rock it :D*]]
" BEER BUTTER FISH AND CHIPS " - CHENG WAN YING.
NERVOUSSSSS...
1st thing in the morning went up to hall saw Jermain.
i dun have to wonder why.
ANYWAYS.
for the whole day,
i was looking forward to English lesson.
FINALLY same class with WANYING AND REGINA.
it's like O-M-G,
HYPERNESS.
okay, though English is the last lesson,
I'll talk about it 1st.
Didn't sit with wayne, x.x
cause was sitting with wanying and Regina ma,
then was like he don't wanna sit with so many girls.
so yeah...
WAS SUPER NERVOUSS AND HYPER.
nervous cause Jer in the same class,
and i can't stop knowing that she's like only 2 seats away from me.
what am i trying to prove by being CHEEKY in class.
MY EAR WAS PULLED BY TEACHER x.x
HYPER cause,
REGINA IN FRONT OF ME,
and WANYING BESIDE ONLY.
omg, i seriously cannot concentrate in class worhs.
so much so as suraya is taking me for English.
a teacher that I'm familiar with.
but nothing beats determination so ;DD
when i came back home, i couldn't stop smiling because i felt so blissed. it's been long since 4 of us went out tgt. wanying, me, yuzhen and regina went to pasa malam after school. while walking to bus stop, wanying and regina was like forcing themselves to speak english because our english teacher said that's one way to improve. so, out of desperation, THEY SPOKE ENGLISH. I simply couldn't help but laugh at them. sorries.
me; " Regina, dun force yourself to speak english for goodness sake."
regina; " you shut up "
me; " even if u want to speak english, you have to speak in proper english right?"
regina; " shut up, you evil "
me; " FYI, it's you are evil. not you evil, that's like BROKEN ENGLISH. "
*argues for one min, couldn't stop laughing. the tone is so funny.*
wanying + yuzhen ; " 你们两个很吵啦。 "
me; " I'm just telling her the fact "
at bus stop.
me; " speak proper ENGLISH!! i can't believe i know you!! ;O"
regina; "i do not know you, make me embarrass my face!!"
me; "我不认识你，丢我的脸。"
* face went entirely red from laughing. *
me; " direct translation somemore. hahahha sry ... i didn't mean to be so mean but i just can't control myself. " *continues to laugh *
regina; " laugh some more, i tell you i slap u. "
me + wanying; "再笑，我告诉你，我给你一巴掌。"
she like so pek chek but keep 偷笑。
HAHAHHAHA, the rest of the conver went on with wanying translating and them ignoring me after a while.
seriously, happiness can come from small things like that.
i felt that i'm more easily contented now.
even after doing homework.
it felt nicer than playing computer that whole day.
in fact, playing games like maple story is more stress.
well at least to me.
it felt good to know that you've finished your homework before dinner.
it felt good to lie on bed and think about what you've achieved today.
i don't know till when will my determination last.
but i believe that once a Capricorn set one's goal,
they will go fully committed to it.
talking to viv had been much easier with me being hyper and happy.
so i take things as alright le bah.
i sobbed a Lil when i thought of negative things that had happened since sec one.
like how i wasted holidays playing maple, foolish sia.
like how i lost Jermain, qi..
like how much i miss those Sky and days we went out on.
like how Lil I've been doing for myself.
like how people had treated me and what I've done for others.
jer told me that selfishness comes from both individually and by nature.
humans are selfish by nature,
but what it took was one's ability to be selfless.
whereas individually comes from things that had happen, etc.
i felt being kinda selfish in terms of thoughts in 2009..
so what, it's time i get ready for a nation wide 'competition'.
i wanna get the best results.
so i would have a wider choice since i did not have a course of interest in mind.
choice would have to come later.
now it's about qualifying for it.
i need to prove myself.
getting VODKAAAA tmr after NYP ;]
wayney was like asking.
printed 4sets of english holiday homework.
it's 2 cm thick literally.
i miss FTBs,
but i'll just leave things in hands of trasher and icy.
updating, recruitment and etc. will be up to you guys.
i've a mission to accomplish.
I SO MUCH WANNA GO OUT WITH THEMMMM.
* inserts all the things you could do in sgp. *
i was suppose to write an emo poem.
but forget about it..
lets just pray viv goes into choir and she will be happy about it.
anyways, that's what matters most about all this appealing.
i believe in affinity and destiny.
my appeals for subject/class changes wasn't successful.
but i was gratful that i didn't manage to change,
because... if i did,
maybe.
i would be alone now.
AND I WOULDNT HAVE MET FTBs and everyone. O-M-G
thinking of that it's just so ... depressing.
anyways i need energy to last me till 6pm tmr. ;]
nights people.
VIVIAN, ADMIT IT, PEEPULL IS I INVENT DE. RAWRRRRRRR.
ps/ i need things to be put out bluntly for me, cause i'll just act innocent even if i guessed it right.
ps// IT'S DISTRUBINGLY HURTING a lot. LOL. sadist x.x
ps/// A desire for someone doesn't have to be a need, even if it means motivation. Determination in mind is the strongest force of the heart.
