[[Rock it :D*]]
Didn't do my hwk for the whole week.
Slacked maple.
I'll do anything but homework.
I'M FEDDUP.
I'm out of motivation.
i keep fussing over future stuffs.
This sucked.
i Hate ME now.
even though it's for the better,
i Still Hate ME now.
SUICIDE WOULD BE GREAT NOW, SERIOUSLY.
though everything's perfect,
Everything seemed fine,
I'm not at all.
I guess i just learnt to keep it inside me that's all.
I miss having someone where i can tell the world to,
having life's that ain't so busy and packed with stuffs,
that Everyone have not time for another.
Convincing myself that it's just my thoughts,
and i have not time for such nonsense.
But I'm breaking down right now...
At a point that i wished i have lose it all already,
so that i do not have to worry about losing them again.
At a point where I'm scared to speak from my heart
because I'm scared i may break this Golden peace.
Maybe that's how Life is after all.
Keeping at all cost for peace and try to look happy,
and till the day where you breakdown into shattered pieces of glass.
What are my principles in life now...
What am i trying to be...
Who am i, even...
Where's my Faith, and what i always been believing in..
i traded all for you and now I'm left with nth.
Because only doing this,
will i be able to let go and fulfill the pact we made 2 years ago.
the ME that started from 8 years ago, is fading off le bah...
My Ways was condemned as Wrong doings,
resulting in me losing someone ...
Who came back only when i finally gave up on that thought, or at least try to...
and ME is finally fading off ....
SO I'M LOST NOW.
HALF MY LIFE,
i lost half my life,
for u to stay.
this part; only a rare few would know, but about everything that ever happened to me? only one, Audrey.. though i doubt she remembers.
With close observations, I always quarrel with Vivian on Thursdays.
Which gives me MORE and MORE reasons to hate Thursdays.
I SHOULD CONFINE MYSELF ON THURSDAYS.
GODDAMMIT.
ps/ someone... please please please please kill me ... T-T
