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" ONE DAY,ONE DECADE, ONE MONTH, A CENTURY & A YEAR IS ETERNITY. "
SUNDAY, 08th of FEB.
Had the urge to keep my eyes close and never open them...
I didn't want to wake to reality today.
MUM DRAGGED me out for breakfast.
i didn't want to wake up,
i don't want to do anything.
afterwards,
I BROKE DOWN...
i couldn't hold it up any longer.
原来,想要保持笑容并不是一件容易的事。
then i realised,
IT WASN'T JUST BECAUSE I'M TIRED...
BACK TO REALITY,
i wore a mask.
i became calmer and distracted myself.
saw something,
then bought it...
then i ask myself ' why should i... '
then told myself ' forget it. She would like it ba... then again, she changed too fast.... let it go, stop thinking'
i practically had this type of struggle in my brain whenever i thought about a particular thing. i want to do something, but i keep asking myself ' why should i since [ insert the rest of the line ]. Now I'm at my wits...
Please ... just prove me wrong okay?
and not asking me what i want.
' ... didn't she say she's very busy with study?? '
' ahh it's her best friends what... '
' then what am i? o.o '
' someone who always do useless stuffs, i guess... '
' zzz-ed I'm thinking such stuffs again * tries hard to remove thoughts * '
after 1 hour... it came back again
' What's with saying she's busy with work everytime i asked, but going out with anyone but me? '
' STOPPPP THINKING ABOUT THISSSS, IT'S STUPID. -.- '
' BUT it's hard to get use to such a distance ever since she came back from M'sia...'
' now you can't blame her for that. plus you couldn't do anything with your mood affected like that. '
' and why are u still believe/hoping?, on the account of memories. '
' UGH, why is this not getting of my mind? what's the point of being so sensitive? later quarrel on such a lousy thing again.'
' you can't help it being that way what... ;[ '
viv called and asked where's far east sometime later...
' er.. far east... banao... yunqian ... howie... orchard road... valentine's day pressie... '
' oh, I suppose I'm always free...'
*answered her question , and hung up, continue to get my bathing equipments.*
ANDDDDD THE DEBATE CONTINUES.
okay i got so frustrated on figuring out that i punched the wall quite a few times to ease my frustration.
sms-ed viv on impulse.
VIV; ' what you mean'
ME; ' .... '
' THERE! YOU DID IT AGAIN. OBVIOUSLY TRYING TO START A QUARREL WITH HER HER JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID OVERSENSITIVENESS AND EVERYTHING... '
regretted smsing ...
calmed down soon le...
no mood type yesterday de blog.
but did it after all.
later gonna do hwk and just sleep.
tmr is a half day,
i suppose i have more time to emo,
and really sort things out.
for the entire thing, i'm mainly angry before i'm sad.
i'm sad because i feel angry.
MUST REALLY GET USED TO WHAT THINGS ARE NOW ....
MUSTN'T RELAY ON MY MEMORIES, CAUSE PEOPLE CHANGE TOO FAST.
MUST NOT DISCRIMINATE SAGIs. OH THIS IS LAME.....
now, this is a rant if you didnt know.
[ deleted because im still concered for IDK WHAT REASON LA. wth ]
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