[[Rock it :D*]]
" Bad things goes in a chain and never stops till you decided that you had enough of it and go against the destiny~ " - xaryth
WHAT I DID TODAY:
SOB-ed, gave myself about 10mins to sort my feelings before going to bathe.
Went to FarEast with shaoshao and jiajia.
truthfully, i couldnt stop thinking about Vivian~
every now and then. PHSH!!
i should really stop doing that.
everyone was late as usual,
and when we finally meet,
jia says she dunwanna buy bag cause no money.
i guess i more of no money then the other 2 bah -.-
SHOULD REALLY SAVE. tsk.
but still ate at Pastamania just now -.-
kinda window shopped at fareast.
A LOT OF STUFFS TO LOOK AT.
haix, i wanna be slim~~~
I'll sureeeeee dress nicely de.
on the way back,
i gave jia SUPER lots of advice on hair.
Shao also agrees with me!
BOTH OF US AGREES THAT XINGYA's HAIRSTYLE IS COMPARABLE TO NORLINDA'S!!!!
couldn't stop laughing!
Pretty much chatted lots about Korea trip with jia,
while Shao spent her time listening to songs.
bid goodbye with shao and walk back home reflecting yet again.
& I've came to a conclusion:
" if I want something, I had to work hard for it. There's nth such as luck, for persistent attitude will eventually have it's reward."
for this, jie, you have to be very proud of me!!!!
BUT then again, I'm stuck at whether i want to chiong or not.
You know why?
[ shao if u ever see this, dun think too much~ after all it's my choice ]
Cause when i told shao that i wanna FLUNK o's,
she say okay, wanna flunk i pei you.
I was stunned when i heard it.
maybe to her isn't of so big,
but to me, it meant that she's willing to sacrifice her future for me.
risk it for a friend, and that's something not everyone will do.
NOT.EVEN.JERMAIN.CHU. will do such a thing for me.
then again, jie will say , cause jer meant well for me.
JUST ask anyone to flunk with you,
and they will say you must be mad.
STILL, 'life is about choices' -shao
& i have to make one right now.
if i'm going to chiong~
i'll drag shao together with me.
it's against ME! to decide to chiong without a person who says something as strong as accompanying me to flunk.
WELL, i guess that's my decision.
i'll still need to do my D&T sooner or later.
Chionging means doing TYS for sci, maths, amaths, and etc ,
whenever i'm free on weekdays.
Another thing!
i know how jia's feeling because...
it is what i always felt about the people closest to me,
as if people will snatch them away from me.
i suck at communicating,
so i'm scared that i'll be less entertaining...
and drift apart.
Jia's probably just experiencing it ba.
but she cried.
For me, i quarrel, i make a fuss, i get things my way done.
Shao don't really understand ba. [;
she got a lot of friends.
to me, i hold close friends AS though my life depended on them [ hmm quite true ]
where for normal friends, i don't take them seriously.
like, not related in anyway X____X
well that's me for u la.
OH!OH!OH!-
i was thinking about this,
Vivian is real or just one of my imagination?,
JER leh?
i know they are real,
but it is hard to convince myself,
if they are the same people.
jie too~. sometimes i really think i was imagining.
This people live in my heart as souls...
who didnt have physical form.
like ... when my grandpa die...
i found myself thinking a few weeks later,
whether this person really existed in this world before?
it's hard to believe sometimes,
that people who live in your heart for such a long time really existed.
that is why i doubt,
that is why i need constant reminders,
that they didnt change cause they did not in my heart[they never will]
but they may have change in reallife,
and im the stupid fool who kept believeing that they are still the people i used to know.
I'M SCARED of changes. i don't do well in any.
