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"In that few seconds, it was as if our friendship trailer flashed before my eyes.
We started out as strangers, complete strangers on the web.
We started to click somehow... talked day and night.
Then you told me big secrets and truths, spilled your guts out to me.
A lot of things changed and happened and we finally met out of the virtual world.
I was ecstatic at the sight of you, honestly.
It might have been the blooming of our friendship at that moment.
We made alot of promises.
Yet, something happened during 08 year end holidays.
I broke a few of the promises and most importantly, your heart.
I was so wrong, but you forgave me boundlessly.
I thought all was well.... but i was wrong, AGAIN.
You brought me cookies, remember? I was really touched. I really wanted to accompany you to dinner, but I didn't.
I was wrong for that, too.
I should have done somethings I didn't and right now, not even a million deaths can make it up.
Though we were apart for quite some time, my soul is still with you.
I won't forget you, really.
I hurt you, my fault, my responsibility, my ending.
A tunnel without a bright light at the end is sad? Then..
I'll dig until i see one, no matter if it's as long as the great wall of China.
I'm sincerely pouring out all my emotions right now.
I don't care if you would read this or not, but I want you to know, I'm not the Vivian I was.
I know this sounds cliche, esp in such a short span of time.
But I'm a whole new person.
I just sincerely hope you would let this new person a new chance.
Although i know some wounds don't heal, I hope you would just talk to me."
- adapted from viv's blog.
you know what, .... all i wanted back was the vivian that i used to know....
I've been really because of this.
i don't wanna be back with u, because of how u could affect my mood.
This year is a really important year.
You know, everytime u did something to dash my heart,
it could last for weeks.
I drank a lot at the start of the year,
cause it hurts that badly.
the Alcohol really makes me stupid sia.
Breezer. =.=
Recently i went emo all over again,
when bro told u that i missed u and u said the same back.
Very moody.
i was emoing till i don't know what i'm emoing about.
-.- no i really don't. i'm just left emotionless.
Like my all emotions ran away from me cause i suck.
& you know,
the gap u left behind... made me go in a frantic search for someone elses.
Many a times i felt like trusting someone, like telling out don't matter anymore.
" JUST LET ME HAVE SOMEONE WHICH I CAN TELL EVERYTHING TO..." i don't think of the consequences, moreover cared about it any longer.
I dunno. But i stopped myself in time.
haix. Life suck~~~ YEAH shao! i agree with u on that!
Gotta do hwk now. Hmmmm... ^~^ jie dk go where liao ....
Hugged huimin quite a lot today.
i need hugs. really...!
Hmmmm... Nutnut 偷亲我!!!
x.x LOL. i think nut knows my secret.
I mean she could guess.
i made it so obvious~
Shao today told me to be cautious of Nut.
Shocked me to realised that's she's dangerous.
Because of the fact that Nut told Jia's big secret out [lessy stuffs]
it's very dangerous to let Nut know anything important to u that u don't wanna others to know.
I guess she's right ba. [;
Shao's really a nice person...
It would be stupid if the trend goes on.
I doubt it will.
I wouldn't allow it ba.
