well viv left for ipoh today.
i was ultra tired when she woke me up today.
hais.
but we chatted anyways.

when i finally got up and bathe,
& prepare for work,
she was leaving sg le.
so we stopped smsing.

i didn't talk much the entire day.
no, i only talked when people asked me questions.
i was too busy concentrating on what to think and what not to think.
the same thoughts had already been preoccupying my entire mind,
and leaving me sleepless nights for the past week.
DESPERATELY GASPING FOR AIR,
CHOKING MYSELF IN MY THOUGHTS.
i read twilight to distract myself.
but it didn't work for a long term.

got scolded at work in the afternoon.
a customer kept changing her mind,
so i kept canceling,
making the whole receipt messy.
THEN BOSS STARED AT ME.
die liao lorh.
got a few times is my partner calculate wrong de,
i think i got blamed for that too.
sweet. -.-
so they are going to change my duty.
how great....
whatever.

packed up and headed home after work.
it was a long ride from siglap to punggol.
took bus 87 & 62.
i didn't take out my book.
it was freezing cold in the bus,
but i just let it come.
it was painfully cold.
but i wasn't in the mood to be bothered with that.
i just kept looking out,
trying to block out thoughts.

i was effing tired when i finally reached home.
went to bed immediately.
i think i was about to get sick.
or more of emotionally sick.
slept till 930 Then i wake.
mum was already back from m'sia with dad.
it was her birthday today.

i came out to charge my phone.
& put up a smile so the celebration could go on.
whatever ... i feel so weak now.









Si liang told me Chaos had made FTB blacklisted by making a FTB de char & went challenging AWE's leader. great... -.- but Jiamin is handling the case currently. so yeah, happy that i didn't need to do much. Thanks a lot JM.















ps// my mood is sibei jialat. & it just got worse ...

Labels: Daily Tots, Emo