[[Rock it :D*]]
'I HATE YOU TO THE CORE, cause u made me felt this way.' Labels: Daily Tots, Emo
freak, i hate feeling this way.
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID.
if i were to go punching the wall like i use to,
i'm suppose to have broken my fingers by now.
i've never hated anyone this much.
THIS IS STUPIDITY.
i'm angry cause i'm freaking far.
cause it's super howwwww things could go in life.
WHY SHOULD I CARE WHY SHOULD I CARE,
WHY SHOUD I LISTEN,
WHY AM I GETTING ANGRY.
oh this just sux.
+59+/*-49+41*-4*-+49+...
I SHOULD REALLY CONTROL MYSELF.
any moment and i'll be crazy.
*calms down*
haix... this is crazy.
Supermassive black hole IS a great song.
COOL beat and everything.
not too serious and blah, CERTAINLY NOT SOUL.
which is practically great. *evil*
you could say that im running and running,
but i could never get thin this way.
did DNT,
but ended up sleeping.
wanwen disturb me when i sleeping. ;[
call me help her buy 595 de screen protector.
lazy go PP la.
some more sleeping -.-
woke up to eat dinner
which is redundant because i'm totally full up.
MASSAGE mum's shoulders cause she's having a major headache.
couldn't get F.I.R - fly off my lips.
BANAO is still rawks.
*admire*
SJH called and is being so irritating ...
STUPIDITY...
EVERYTHING IS SUCH A HORRENDOUS STUPIDITY IN MY EYES.
school, life, relationship and everything.
downright PESSIMISTIC.
i'm so gonna break every glass ball in my life,
and HOLD on tightly to the rubber ball which i know will not break,
but still i treasure it like fuck now. wth.
MY LIFE IS MESSED UP.
i've become a person that i myself hate.
i think about myself in everything i do.
i never gonna believe in love,
and think that it's stupidity to care for anyone because you'll only end up getting hurt.
it stupid to cry and get all emotionally over things and...
to feel, to breathe.
LIFE IS STUPIDITY.
everything is plain useless now.
all i wanna now is to get away from this wretched place and find myself back.
i freaking wanna break away.
I do not want to sleep cause i'm afraid to face another day.
I drink to suppress my feelings and thoughts, anger and sadness.
Mask... i'm sinking deep into hiding myself.
not just about myself, my feelings and thoughts and everything.
i used to be like that for a another reason,
but right now.. i feel life is just plain useless and there's no meaning to it.
wasn't exactly into suicidal,
just a living zombie.
NUMB.
i'm doing everything i could to keep myself numb.
cause it hurt, and i'm doing what i could to keep away from the source.
sleeps are still peaceful, but consciousness is my nightmare.
IN other words, i'm living in my nightmare.
NICE right. exactly. ;]
NEED TO SEEK CONSULTANT FROM JER,
definitely not someone who can manipulate my feelings whenever she feel like it.
well, and definitely you didn't know you could ;DDD
